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Darkness

Unknown userMember23 Apr 2020, 7:03 pm AEST

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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Lee82Senior Contributor24 Oct 2020, 8:39 pm AEDT

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I feel the same way Exocet I really don't like dusty.
@Zoe7 but I would be happy if they came up and wibr too.

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Zoe7Senior Contributor24 Oct 2020, 8:42 pm AEDT

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Oh I looove Dusty @Lee82

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Lee82Senior Contributor24 Oct 2020, 8:43 pm AEDT

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Hahaha...nope too cocky for me

@Zoe7

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Zoe7Senior Contributor24 Oct 2020, 8:46 pm AEDT

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I don't think he is but I can see how you would see that @Lee82 I think earlier on in his career he may have been a little but he is a pretty quiet, reserved guy from what I know of him - so different to what he is like on the football field.

Do you have any interest in the NRL tomorrow?

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Lee82Senior Contributor24 Oct 2020, 8:48 pm AEDT

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@Zoe7 do you know id Izzy has been on today at amk? I an reakky worries

yea I see that hw has mellowed our recently but I think je did the damage ealriws on.
no sorry I have no interest in the nrl

whi you goinf for?

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Zoe7Senior Contributor24 Oct 2020, 8:55 pm AEDT

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Earlier this afternoon @Lee82 but not since then. @Former-Member will check in when she is able Hon and I have no doubt she is thinking about you. It is very hard for you both at the moment and I know how much your friendship means to you both so look after yourself this evening Hon and I am sure she is doing what she needs to do the same

I am much the same with the NRL - don't really have a favourite tomorrow.

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Lee82Senior Contributor24 Oct 2020, 9:02 pm AEDT

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I know whag your saying is right I am just super paranoid at the moment and a hell of a lor going thriugh me head. I can't thi jk straibght

I an sullies to give my phone back now but I beggad for a little more tine so u have another 15

@Zoe7

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Zoe7Senior Contributor24 Oct 2020, 9:04 pm AEDT

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I will stick with you until you have to go Hon. I know you are worried but you really have to look after yourself first. We love you both @Lee82 @Former-Member

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Lee82Senior Contributor24 Oct 2020, 9:13 pm AEDT

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Thanj you @Zoe7

@I only have a fee more min.

do you have anything planned for tonorresw

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Zoe7Senior Contributor24 Oct 2020, 9:15 pm AEDT

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Just school work to get ready for the week @Lee82 I also need to go to the chemist but that can wait until Monday if need be. I am enjoying the time home with my fur babies 😺🐶

Have you spoken to your boys today?

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