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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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I'm ok thank you gorgeous. I'm sorry it's a :pile_of_poo: time at the moment. I'm glad you are getting help though sweetie and hope you are being taken good care of in there. I'm good, both my boys are good too. Just a quiet wet weekend watching movies and a quick visit to my parents as my boy hasn't seen them of late. Love you Mel and keeping you in thoughts X

@Lee82

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@Lee82 hoping the rest of your day went ok.

Lots of love and hugs sweetheart 💕💕

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Leaving some love and hugs here for @Former-Member and @Lee82 and everyone else passing by

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@Lee82 I really feel for you. I hope you found some time to rest up. Thinking Of you 🌻 xx

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Thank you everyone for your support. It has been a very rough day today. I am watching the footy but I think I will be asleep before it finishes. WhT a start to the game with 1 player from each team already out.
@Zoe7 @Schitzo @Snowie @Anastasia @outlander @Emelia8 @Fluttershy1

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My love if you are around I would love to be able to speak to you before I have to hand my phone back.
I hope you are doing as ok as you can be right now.
love you so the moon and back

@Former-Member

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@Lee82 - things are really tough my end at the moment, I'm practically in tears I'm being forced to eat when I'm not hungry. I just wish family could understand how I'm feeling. My GP won't put me on Meds for my MH which is what I need but I'm to high risk apparently for SI I wouldn't even do it anyways. I'm safe.

love you xx

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@Lee82 Watching footy too ...so is @Anastasia so we can all watch together - who are you going for?

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Please my love are you able to check on with us. I have to give up my phone soon and I am truly worried about you.
@Former-Member

I am so glad that the cats are leading. Hope they can keep it up.
@Zoe7 @Anastasia

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I actually do not really care who wins @Lee82 I love the Tigers but would also like to see Dangerfield get his first premiership and Ablett to go out with a win ...so a bit torn.

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