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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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@Lee82 @ and @Former-Member thinking of you both today and hoping the world is being kind to you both. Love peaxxx

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Hey honey. I am so very sorry to hear about your nephew and his GF. I cannot believe they have been treating you like that. That is so disrespectful especially after you have been so understanding and supportive of his own MH. What is wrong with this f**king world. That has made me extremely angry.
you deserve so much more hun. You deserve understanding and support and love and care.
I know it's hard but you have to try and not let it affect you hun. You have so much more to worry about right now.
I love you always and forever my beautiful BFF

@Former-Member ❤️ I hope you are ok my love. I miss you so very much 😥

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@Lee82 @Former-Member 💜💕💛❤🧡💙
Sending you both love

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Thanks so much hun. I haven't been the best lately. How are you and your boy doing

@Anastasia

hey pea. Thanks gorgeous. I am hoping the same for you.
@Bunniekins

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Thanks @outlander right back at you

❤️💜💚💙🧡💛

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Hi Beautiful @Lee82

My boy has not been great so it's been challenging and tonight I am finding myself on the slippery slope of feeling sorry for myself wishing I could disappear. Going to do some diamond painting and see if that helps. Seeing you here was really nice. Keep taking care of you x

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Hi @Lee82 @Anastasia ... I'm doing some diamond painting this evening too. Did half an hour of it while dinner was cooking. Just finished eating, and back to my diamond painting. Down to my final 1/6th of this current one.

Hi @Former-Member Really miss our usual talks. Hope everything starts to improve for you soon.

Emelia 🌷😄

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Missed you @Lee82 💜💜

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@Former-Member ❤️
how you doing my love?

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Hello friends, I am struggling so bad right now am feeling like we are going under. All the strength in me is gone and I am not functioning in the body well at all. One MH appointment done today with another tomorrow morning or this morning as the case is given the time. Mel and Em thank you for being so sweet to Kimmy, the rest of us really appreciate it. I have to be up by 6 this morning to leave by 7 to get to my appointment on time 😔 but while I could I just wanted to check in with you all.

@Emelia8 , I am missing you and our chat also and wishing there was something someone could do to help me get back to at least where I was a couple of weeks ago as it loads better then where I am currently. Love you my beautiful friend

@Lee82 , my love I am so very sorry you are not doing great either and wish there was a way to support you more here. Missing you so much it hurts sometimes. Love you always and unconditionally Mel.

@NatureLover , I hope you are doing as well as you can be my friend, really hope that we see you soon.

@outlander , hey little one I am hoping that you are making it through each day without too much stress.

@Zoe7 , hey lovely sending you huge huges my friend.

@Eve7 , think of you often my beautiful friend and hope you are doing as ok as you can be.

@Schitzo , hope your days are ok and that you manage to have restful nights my friend.

@Anastasia , so things are hard for you right now amd that your boy isn't too great either. Thinking of you heaps

@Shaz51 , thank you for tagging me in threads even though I am not here much. It makes me feel very wanted and loved.

@Maggie , my sweet friend I hope you are doing as well as you can be right now.

👋 @Sans911 @MDT, @Snowie @Ant7 @Owlunar @Faith-and-Hope

Well I am going to try an sleep now. ❤️Nikki

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