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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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@Former-Member @Lee82

I see that you have been offline over the weekend, thinking of you both and sending some love

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Morning friends, lots of MH appointments this week, which is a good thing I guess as we have had a horrid weekend. Worse being that I think my nephew amd his girlfriend are

mocking my did and other MH issues. I believe they are abusing my faith in them as I do believe and support them through anything. But a couple of the things my nephew said to me Saturday night makes me think he is making all his DID traits amd that leaves me

feeing like an idiot amd is making fun/mocking me to cover his own bad behaviours. I am a mess amd feel

so stupid for believing him. I don't know what to think I would hope no one would go out of the Rey to make up child abuse stories to this extent eve ad knowing how unsettled I am to be confiding possible lies to me Tom have me support them

is just not on. I should say that

my nephew did a lot of research on DID to

help him understand what I am going through and now when I say anything twitch a couple

of days he is experiencing it as well. I am such a fool not to have question him and believing him straight away. Even the peopl wo claim to love

me mock me.

@Lee82 @Emelia8 @Anastasia @Shaz51 @Schitzo @Bunniekins

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Oh @Former-Member

I am sorry that is just awful.

We all believe you as well as believe in you. Please focus on that

Will be thinking of you through all of your appointments. Thank you for the update xxx

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@Former-Member I'm sorry your nephew and his girlfriend are so disrespectful. Please always remember that you are very much loved here 💕

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Thanks @Schitzo & @Anastasia

@Lee82 , love you 3000

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Helo my lee

and

my em I like me

Letter from yuo my Lee ad my Em

nik

stull sick lots

I lov you my Em amd my lee

@Emelia8 @Lee82

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Hello beautiful Kimmy. I always enjoy a visit from my favouite little girl. I am very sorry Nikki is still unwell. How about you though little Kimmy? Are you okay, and is Seanie taking good care of you?

I am very happy that you enjoyed getting my letter yesterday. I enjoy getting letters from you too sweetie. And yes ... I love you too.

💗🐶🐢🐰🐓🐴🐼🐒🐋🐬

@Former-Member

Em 💕

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Hey beautiful kimmy. So nice to hear from you again sweets.
mel is not doing so good hun but I wanted to just send you some gentle hugs your way and to tell you that I love you very meuxj
@Former-Member

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@Former-Member 👸❤️💜❤️

@Emelia8 🐶❤️
@Anastasia 🦋💜

@outlander 🦖💙

@Bunniekins 🧚‍♀️🧡

@Zoe7 🐱💚

@Snowie ❄️❤️
@NatureLover 💐💜

@Fluttershy1 🍭❤️

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It is so lovely to see you @Lee82

I am sorry you aren't doing well. Please stay safe xox

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