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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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I'm sorry hun was it my writing?

im ok it's just my meds. Thanks for your concern babe it meant a lot.
hoping you are doing ok babe.
@Anastasia ❤️

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No just my gut feeling was all, nothing you said/did hun,

plus I have been in your position many a time in the early days with my ex so I feel for you I really do @Lee82

How is your son, did his results come back?

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Thank you everyone for your messages and for sitting with me. I have been asleep most of the day as I am physically and emotionally exhausted from yesterday. @Lee82 @Anastasia @Schitzo @Emelia8 @Zoe7

oh I am so very sorry my love that Jules is being such a brat about the boys. I went through the same with the kids dad, they never want to talk responsibility for their own actions. You are doing amazing with the boys. Love you so very much. @Lee82

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Hey hun. I am glad to hear that you have been resting today.
love you so much and sending you lots of hugs beautiful girl.
@Former-Member ❤️🥰❤️

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Mr9 is still a little sick but result came back negative however Mr13 is sick now...:face_with_rolling_eyes: when it rains it pours.
I am just so very hurt and upset because I thought my ex knew me better than that. I would never turn the kids against him. His the one that has never ever shown any interest in the boys lives ever. He never went to a parent teacher interview, never went to a taekwondo grading or basketball game or got involved in Auskick. He doesn't even know his kids teachers names and never has known. He doesn't even know what mr9's school looks like. When Mr9 was 4 he broke his arm and instead of going to the hospital with me he ended up going away to Bathurst with his friends and I had to take Mr13 who was mr8 back then with me in the ambulance and figure out how I was going to get home from the hospital. This is just the very top of the iceberg so I shall stop there cause the list is a mile long and I would be here all night writing down everything.
@Anastasia

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Hey Hon. Your boys will always know who loves them and cares for them and with your guidance will know what it is to care for each other - hold onto that because that matters @Lee82

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Thank you so much hun for saying that. It meant a lot especially when I know your going through a lot yourself. So thank you so much Zoe.

@Zoe7

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@Former-Member

I miss my beautiful BFF

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@Former-Member Hey hun how you doing?
what's your plans for the weekend?
love you babe ❤️

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Honey I am going out of my mind with worry.
please let me know that you are ok.

@Former-Member

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