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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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Hi @Former-Member

Oh I am so sorry Izzy that you are struggling to see any light this evening. It must be a very hard place to be when you are thinking that you don't want to be safe. Good on you for coming to the forums for support. If your husband is not able to look after you tonight and you need help off the forums please call a help line or 000 in a crisis.

I really hope you are able to see a little glimmer or light and hope again soon,

Stay safe

Whitehawk

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Oh sweet @Former-Member

Sitting with you my friend ❤️

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❤️ @Former-Member ❤️
I am so grateful you have hubby there right now to watch over. Please please be kind to yourself hun and stay strong. I love you so very much, always and forever to infinity and beyond 💜 3000

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Still here for you @Former-Member 🌷

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Dear @Former-Member ... Please stay with us. I love you and miss you very much.

Emelia

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@Former-Member Hey hun. How you doing?
Any chance you can support this post just so I know you are ok. My BFF worry signal is going off.

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Just want to say a quick hello and wish everyone following a wonderful weekend. I am so sorry I havent been around mucg today or followed each one of stories recently I will do my best to catch up jb everyone over the weekebd. I havent been the best support. I am so sorry.
Spent the mornibt arguing with my ex. He blames the biys not wanting to see him on me. Actually he blames everything On Ne. I have done nothing but defend hin, hide for him and try and force the boys to see hin and this is thanks I get. Just some more :pile_of_poo: to deal with. I'm the bad guy and I always will be.
anyway just wanted to let you all know a little abiut what's been snapped ing
@Former-Member @Anastasia @Fluttershy1 @Emelia8 @Zoe7 @outlander @Bunniekins @NatureLover @Faith-and-Hope @Snowie @Sans911 @Shaz51 @Schitzo

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Hi @Lee82

Please don't feel the need to apologise, you are doing the best you can and that is more then enough.

I'm sorry you are having troubles with your ex, it does sound like you are getting the blame for everything.

Take care of you first sweetheart, that is more important then catching up on our news.

Sitting with you hun 💌💌

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@Lee82

I can tell you are not in a good way please breathe and no need to apologise.

Here for you, sitting with you. Are you ok now hun?

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@Lee82 Please, you don't have to apologise for anything. You have got a lot on your plate at the moment. I'm sorry your ex is being such an A-hole.

I hope you take @Snowie advice to take some time out for you.

You deserve some rest after all you have to deal with

Take care 💚🌼xx

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