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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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💚💙💛 @Former-Member

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I'm sorry you weren't able to sleep, not surprised though.

Look after yourself lovely lady.

I'll be thinking of you. xx ❤️🦋

@Anastasia

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Good morning lovelies, another long day with one MH appointment for me and taking me nephew for his first MH appointment with Nat. Things are still pretty rough and I feel like I am outside of the body watching it do what it needs to get through a day. I will try and check in again later. 💜 Nikki

@Anastasia , take care of you honey, I know the pain of having a son choose to go live with their dad. It's a pain like no other. It took me a week to function ok and a hell of a lot long to be ok with that. It still hurts when I think about the day he told me and that was 11 years ago. Sending you huge hugs💜 Nikki

@Zoe1 , all I can say is thank you. You are a truly amazing person and I am blessed to count you as a friend. 💜Nikki

@Lee82 , I am so very sorry for stressing you out. You don't need that. 😞 I love you heaps gorgeous 💜Nikki

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Goodmorning everyone @Former-Member @WIP @Anastasia @Schitzo @Bunniekins @Lee82

Nikki - it is absolutely my pleasure to be here with you and to know you, Izzy and everyone

Love and hugs to you all

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Hello everybody @Zoe7 @Myboy @Schitzo @greenpea @Lee82 @Former-Member

Zoe, such a good friend you were last night.

I hope Tobes is ok

WIP xx

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We do what we can when we can @WIP

Tobes is okay - has to have his teeth cleaned on Monday with the possibility of one tooth needed to be removed. I have Cat at the vet today having her tummy ultrasound. I have everything crossed it is still clear - if that is the case we won't need to do another one for 12 months. She looks healthier than she has ever been so I am feeling positive it will be all clear.

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Well, you're a wonderful support to so many of us here @Zoe7

I had Levi at the vet y'day - snip, snip time.

Hope Tobes was ok during his tooth examination.

Wishing Cat all the best for her ultrasound. By the sounds of it, she'll be all good. You're positivity will help her get through.

Your credit card is going to get a good going over though. But we love them so much, I'd pay almost anything for their health.

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I am lucky enough to have a great vet who also lets me pay it off @WIP I will be able to pay for Cat today but Tobes' visit on Monday will need to be paid next month. If he does in-fact need his tooth removed it will have to be over a couple of months as that will double the price.

Yes we do what we have to for our fur babies - they are so special to us and so worth it. I hope Levi is okay after his snip snip. It is a much shorter recovery time for males so that is a good thing.

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Babe please don't apologise. I care about you so very much hun that's why I worry. I love you so very much. Wow it's been a pretty full on week for you hun. No wonder things have been so tough for you. Good luck with your appointment today and all the best for your nephew too.
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Good morning hun. How was your night? Did you manage some sleep? What are your plans for today? How is tobes and cat doing?

❤️ @Zoe7

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