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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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Love you sweetie, good night @Lee82

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Love you gorgeous. I hope we can chat some more tomorrow hun. I have missed you. Sweet dreams beautiful

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Good morning all. I hope you got a decent sleep last night and I wish you all a good day today.
I had a pretty bad night last unfortunately so I only got 3 hours sleep.
@Former-Member @outlander @Bunniekins @Zoe7 @Schitzo @Anastasia

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Sorry you had such a bad night @Lee82 - unfortunately I can relate. I did have a better night last night (around 5 hours sleep) but the previous few nights were really difficult. I am trying not to get too focussed on 'not being able to sleep' and going with the flow in the hope that reduces my anxiety around sleeping and allows me atleast a few hours ...then building that up again. I did have some help from my emergency suppy of extra meds and will try that again tonight. I can work at the moment with 5 hours but need to be able to increase that before I go back to work.

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Sorry to hear that you both had little sleep @Lee82 , @Zoe

that makes for an extremely difficult day. I am sending to the Universe well wishes for a peaceful night tonight for you both. Be kind to yourselves today, just do what "has" to be done, the rest can wait. Thinking of you both xox

Hello everyone

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@Former-Member @Zoe7 @Bunniekins @Lee82 and everyone xxx

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I have a lot still to get done for work so need to continue to push through @Anastasia I really want to be able to take most off next week off so the quicker I get it all done the more likely that will happen.

Have to take Tobes to the vet later for his annual checkup then will likely have a nap afterwards.

What are you up to today?

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@Anastasia thank you for the beautiful tag :Dxx Happy Wednesday to everyone @Anastasia @Former-Member @Zoe7 @Lee82 @outlander . Sleepy day for me but have been for a walk and done some gardening., Now for a nap[. Hoping everyone is okay. Love peaxx

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That is a good way to look at it @Zoe7 because I think I always make things worse at night by stressing over not sleeping.
When does school start up for you again Zoe?
my boys go back on Monday. Mr9 thankfully will be back at school and Mr13 will still be at home.

@Anastasia how you feeling today hun? How is your boy going? I have been thinking about you lots lately. I truly hope you and your boy can find a little peace.

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Good morning @Lee82,

I hope you have a calm and restful day. I'm sorry you had a bad night, hopefully you can find some time for a nap 🤗🌼💚

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