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Hey honey how you doing this morning? How was your night?
I had a pretty terrible night last night and I have woken with a massive headache and feeling quite sick.
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love you so much beautiful

Hey pea, me too my beautiful friend me too. I wish I had the ability to study right now because I would love to be studying astral projection. Then when I can focus (which isn't to often) on my third eye I can almost always see my best friend who has passed. The only way I can ensure I never forget her beautiful smile. Have a super pea day lovely @Bunniekins

Thank you so much @NatureLover

i won't be able to contact my psychologist for another week.
I hope you have a nice Sunday and that you are doing ok my friend.

Good morning gorgeous, not a great night here either and it has been a very long morning. I am so very sorry that our conversation yesterday triggered you, that was never the outcome I had wanted babe. I tried hard to explain FFF to help you realise that there is nothing "wrong" with you that it is all part of your C-PTSD. I am so sorry.

Hoping your headache will lift even a little soon and that you and the boys can have a restful Sunday. @Lee82

Oh no honey it wasn't what you wrote that triggered me. To be honest I was watching something on tv and what I saw triggered me greatly. I had to lock myself in the bathroom to hide from the boys. It did not end well hun.
I am so sorry you also had a rough night. Is there anything you want to talk about? I am here for you hun if you want. I am holding your hand and ready to listen.
love you 3000 gorgeous

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It's just the same stuff Mel, flashbacks and nightmares. I have a lot of alarm bells this morning. As always though I was not only the first wake at home but in a very quiet neighbourhood and normally I love sitting outside listening to the bird song amd watch a dumb ars* maggie kissing his reflection on the windows of my car but all of that was too loud, then I was putting to water in for the dishes and I blanked and next minute well let's say my hand doesn't like hot water. In the bathroom and I was staring at myself and cutting little bits of my hair, all of adds up to it not being or going to be a good day. I don't see Nat till Thursday ☹️ I will be in my paint room for as much as I can to help with the sh thoughts and just walking around the house with my headsets blocking out the world. @Lee82

I am sorry things where so bad yesterday for you.

Oh honey....I am so so sorry. Was this the work of shadow?
Is your hand ok hun? Did you put it in cold water? Does it need medical attention?
I hope being In Your paint room with your headphones on will help to calm everything down hun. I so wish I could be there to give you a big hug but all I can do is send you virtual hugs. ❤️💙💜💚💛🧡

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you are forever on my mind beautiful and I will be here pretty much all day if you want company.

My hand is fine sweetie, the hand was Shadow the rest was me😔 I hope you are going to be ok today my love. Love you more 💖💖💖 @Lee82

I just got a call from the psychiatric hospital and they can't get me in till March next year.

Can I ask a question but please if you can't answer it or don't want to that is totally fine my love.
do you know why you cut your hair? Was there a reason behind it?
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