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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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I am waiting for paramedics, I simply couldnt take anymore. But he found me again 😞 I am safe now babe @Lee82

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Omg babe...I am so glad he was there...please you have to keep fighting honey. I can't do this alone.
you need to keep me updated please babe.
it hurts me so much that you are hurting this much babe.
do you think it may be time for some sort intervention. Would you consider hospital honey?
I need you to be safe

@Former-Member

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Hey there @Former-Member,

It sounds like you were in lot of pain and distress earlier, and tried to do something to harm yourself. I'm really sorry to hear it got to that point today. I am glad to hear you are safe and waiting for paramedics.

If you or anyone needs some extra support today please do reach out:

Lifeline: 13 11 14 or Crisis Chat

Suicide call back service: 1300 659 467 or online counselling

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@Former-Member

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Hold on to that quote babe. Please

@Former-Member

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Thank you and sorry for putting you through that this afternoon my love. It was very inconsiderate and insensitive of me.

@Lee82 to infinity and beyond 💖

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Don't you dare say sorry babe. I would be more upset if you didn't tell me. Remember we are always honest with each other no matter what.

how you feeling my love?
@Former-Member

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I am sorry I haven't been completely honest this is the second time he has found me this week. 😞 I am not great but am safe. @Lee82

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I'm sorry it's taken so long to write back. I just needed some time.
why didn't you tell babe? Did he have to call the ambulance last time too?
I'm sorry you are probably not up for a million questions and thoughts right now so I will leave it to those 2 and also to say I love you soooooo much and I am thinking of you honey.
💗 @Former-Member

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Babe you still safe? @Former-Member

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