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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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You make my life better @Lee82 Thanks for being so sweet and caring Mel. Good night sweetie

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Thank you for your kind words @Former-Member

Sleep well my friend

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One eye shut already, thank you beautiful @Former-Member

Night dear friends each and every one of you xxxx

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You have just made me burst into tears my love. That touched my heart very deeply. Thank you for being you. Thank you for being my BFF. Thank you for saving me.
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@Former-Member Love you sweetheart. Always with you. Love peaxxx

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Mel what did you mean by "thank you for saving me" @Lee82

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@Former-Member really sorry to hear about your knee, as someone who has had knee troubles I know how awkward and painful it can be... I'm sorry you can't get to the doctor till Tuesday. I really hope the pain eases in the meantime. Your paint room is stunning, and it isn't even finished yet! Thank you for your sweet message... Thinking of you lots and sending 💜

@Lee82 I'm sorry you have been so troubled with panic attacks 😞 Sending you many good wishes that they will ease and give you some relief... Sending warm hugs 🧡

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Good morning beautiful how did you sleep hun?
Ok this may sound crazy and a little weird.
There have been many times when I wanted to end it all, when I was about to do something stupid but I felt your presence around me. I can't exactly explain it but I knew you were there with me and you gave me the strength I needed to stop.
I hope that doesn't creep you out. I know I sound crazy. I'm sorry hun.
love you unconditionally babe

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Good morning @NatureLover how have you been hun?

thank you so very much for supporting my posts and for your lovely message this morning. I hope you have a nice and relaxing Friday even though it is raining outside.
🌦❤️🌈

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Good to see you, @Lee82 🙂 Yes, it's pretty icy outside! I haven't been around in the evenings as been struggling, so I've been missing chatting with you. I'm better in the mornings. I hope your Friday is also as relaxing as possible... Is Mr 9 well again now?

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