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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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I am safe but I am not ok.
@Former-Member

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Do you want to talk about it him? @Lee82

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Hmm that message is gone and I wasn't able to reply @Lee82 How did you little on go at the doctors?

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It's ok don't worry about it. Clearly I have said something in the post I wasn't suppose to although I am not quite sure what that was.
perhaps I shouldn't be here.
@Former-Member

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That is your call but please be safe. Check in when you can so I don't stress out too much. Of course I would prefer you to stay but I will honour your choice my love. @Lee82

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How has your night been my love? How is I your knee feeling?

@Former-Member

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I am in my paint room working on the Christmas presents amd my special project. So mood is pretty mellow for now. My knee is pretty bad still, hubby tried to get me into the doctors but can't do it till Tuesday. So it's strapped and raised so hopefully I haven't done anything to bad to it. @Lee82

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I hope your knee feels beter soo hun. Is it swollen? Mane sure it's raise me above you m heart.
gkad to hear you are feeling melkow Amin your paint room babe.
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Are your meds making it hard for you to type or is that panic? I can't wait till some of the little things in the paint room are complete so I can share some pictures of it. I should be sleeping soon my love, please stay safe tonight. I love you very much Mel. @Lee82

@Anastasia, I hope you are doing ok tonight lovely lady and that your day without help didn't get to overwhelming. Sleep sweet my wonderful friend

@Emelia8, wherever you are and whatever you are doing just wanted to let you know that we are missing you and hoping that you are safe.

@Zoe7 , hello sweetheart I hope you are as safe as you can be and that this break away is helping you. Hoping that you might have gotten a little closer to being a little ok with your loss. Sending you my love and hugs

@Eve7 , gorgeous lady I hope you are ok. Sending you lots of love and some gentle hugs

@Bunniekins, I miss my pea 😔 hope you are sound asleep by now princess and that tomorrow brings sunshine and joy.

@NatureLover , I know you have logged of by now and are possibly asleep. Wishing you dreams filled with love laughter and hope.

@Shaz51 , wishing you and Mr Shaz a restful night.

@Maggie , sending you wishes for a peaceful night my friend.

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Oh geez sorry my love it was panic.
I hope you are able to get some decent sleep tonight babe.

love you more than I can begin to describe beautiful

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