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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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No @Lee82 😞

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Good morning everyone, I will apologise ahead of time as you have with you this morning a very hyper coffee driven Nikki😂😂☕️☕️☕️☕️☕️ (Izzy doesn't drink cooofffee) 😂

So I have some first world issues for you to consider this morning:

1. You should ALWAYS store your deodorant and hairspray separately a mistake I made this morning!!!!

2. When cleaning the bathroom, toilet and kitty potty and it becomes less about cleaning the weeks worth of dust and grime and more about how much of this acrylic paint and glitter can I remove then my friend you may have an addiction 😂

3. After cleaning them it's time for a cup of tea right? (Coffee today 🤪) and you think to yourself how much cleaning can I get done in the kitchen before the kettle boils? So fill the kettle to the max limit and go!!!!

4. If you have daughters, sisters or share a bathroom with multiple people you understand the dilemma of hair wash days. Now in our place when we three girls had shoulder to waist length hair the rule was, while I washed my hair every night the girls where to wash theirs on different nights. Well that never happened and hair wash day often coincided with shaving day. Bathroom time and hot water on these days where at a premium. Well now D2 and I have short hair, hair wash day means something completely different 🧐pictures will explain.

The joys of living with someone who loves to cosplay😂😂

Thank you for taking the time to read this ridiculous post😂😂😂 Hoping everyone in fourm land has a gentle day.
@Lee82 @Emelia8 @outlander @Zoe7 @Bunniekins @Anastasia @Eve7 @Faith-and-Hope @Shaz51 @Maggie @NatureLover @MDT @Ant7 @Owlunar @eth @Former-Member @Sans911 @TAB

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Hahaha I needed that giggle after my black morning thank you Nikki ☕☕☕

Excitedly Waiting on your pics to load @Former-Member

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@Former-Member Hey Nikki I am a coffee girl although do drink tea also. Love my caffine :p. When my daughter lived with me there would be three of us all wanting long, hot showers to wash our hair (son2 has long hair too). So I know what you mean re long hair and long showers. As for cleaning .... oh well may be today is the day. Take good care of yourself and looking forward to seeing the pictures when they come through. xxx

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good onya @Former-Member
Have a good one 🙂

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Ridiculous post number 2! I won't tag you all because I think it would be annoying 😊

I live a 2 minute walk (well 10 for me as the is a dam Hill in the way) from our local primary school and they play music for the bells 🔔 as it's meant to be calming and enjoyable for the students. But I hear it every dam time it goes off. I wonder if they would consider playing something like Another Brick in the Wall 🤣

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😂😂😂 thank you for making my laugh hun. Just what I needed this morning before I start the coffee runs for mum. It's the worst part of my day.
sticky armpits is what you want first thing in the morning 🙈🙈

how did your race against the kettle go? Did you get much cleaned?
Your new hair washing day is hilarious..I thank the lord I have short hair and also one side is shaved to even less to wash....my hair is super super thick so it was always a struggle to wash it when it was waist length and took like 3 days to dry.


Having
2 boys there is never a fight over the shower only fights everyday to get their butts in the shower. Stinky boys hate having showers. They act like the water is going to burn their skin. 😡😡

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@Former-Member Lol

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I think the part where they say "we don't need no education" may be an issue hahah @Former-Member

But yeah I know what you mean. The school next door to my workplace used to play a timomatic song and I eventually began to resent the song. Haha.

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I hear you. I am sitting with you and I am so very sorry. 😞

Please don't feel you ever have wear a mask around me my love.

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