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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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Oh Izzy. I'm so sorry hun. I'm so sorry your night ended the way it did. And I'm sorry I wasn't there. 😞

I failed too babe.
how you feeling this morning?
@Former-Member

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When you can babe can you please check in @Former-Member 💕

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I am so sorry about not being there last night. I did follow along though. I am

somflad that you found other support through other and new members. I am not feeling so good. I allowed my self to get in a state about weather you where ok. Remember my emotions my fault. Can't tell you how relieved I am to see you gorgeous

Love you 3000 @Lee82

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Thank you babe for checking in. @Former-Member

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Babe i went looking for the post you were talking about last night. The one you didn't want to post on this thread. It took me awhile cause I wasn't sure what thread you were talking about but I found it.

i am really worried babe. Those words are extremely powerful and I need to know that they are just thoughts you needed to get out. Please be completely honest with me hun. Are they just thoughts? Are you really safe?
@Former-Member

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Babe I am fuzzy I don't and honestly don't know which post you are talking about? The one in tough times or worry room or here? Fuzzy so very fuzzy this morning @Lee82

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Honey why so fuzzy this morning? I'm talking about the one in worry room.
@Former-Member

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I didn't realise you had seen that one. I am fuzzy because I had to be sedated last night. @Lee82

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OMG babe. I can't find the words to tell just how I am feeling right now. I am just so very sorry. I'm so angry at myself.

you are so important to me babe and your health and well-being takes president over anything. I am sorry for putting you through that. You did not need that extra stress. My son has just asked me why I'm crying. I can't keep doing this to you. Maybe I'm just not good for you right now.
I never thought I would ever feel this way about another person ever again. I never thought I would care this deeply and love someone this much ever again. Even though we have never met, you have made a very significant impression on me and I can't even begin to tell you just how much you mean to me.
babe please I really need you to answer my questions I ask you

In The other post. Please be honest with me. @Former-Member

I'm so sorry it took so long to respond but I just can't seem to find the words to express just how I feel right now.

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Hey @Lee82 @Former-Member I can see that you're both very concerned for one another, which is really great to see that your wanting to offer each other support. Just a reminder though to expand out to other threads, and try to avoid that silo communication in the forums, which can feel exclusionary for other members. If you need extra support right now, we recommend getting in touch with SANE Help Centre on 1800 18 7263 or Lifeline on 13 11 14. Take care and go gently.

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