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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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That is so sweet of him @Former-Member

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Just waiting for the pics to load.
Lol...poor kitty having to share with you 🤣

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I dont know @Former-Member . Right now I feel weighed down by feelings of dread. And Im in pain. Tomorrow ... today actually ... is going to be a very hard day.

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Oh no there is no sharing 😂😂😂😂 I have taken over😂 He is such a wonderful man and I feel so horrible because I have been no help since last week😒 He is being the man I fell in love with and that is hard because all the reasons why he left are still there and it's confusing the hell out of me. @Lee82

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Can you take anything for your pain Em? I wish there was something helpful I could say about how your feeling. Fingers crossed it's not to bad of an outcome, I will miss you terribly 🥺 @Emelia8

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Sorry I interrupted. I will leave you ladies to it @Former-Member @Lee82 Dont want to inflict my low mood on you any more than I already have.

Izzy, your paint room will be fabulous. Still awaiting pics.

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Ok my beautiful friends, I have had my cuppa and my ciggie and am curled up on my favourite lounge outside so if I suddenly stop chatting I have fallen asleep again. If I do thank you both for keeping me company. @Lee82 @Emelia8

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I can understand that it would be confusing hun. Have you spoken to him about how you feel?

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Hmmm don't you leave Em, you didn't interrupt anything. This is why we are here isn't it? To help our friends when they are not feeling great, I don't want you to go. But if you have to I will understand @Emelia8

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@Emelia8 Please don't feel you have to leave. We love your company and are here to listen to whatever is going on for you always.
you have not interrupted anything...promise

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