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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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Knowing thar you arw am here is all I need ti know hun. Thabk you. I have been havibf panic attacks all dat. I just cane stop then.
@Former-Member

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I will sit with you gently holding your hand and supporting you the best I can right now @Lee82

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I reaky do not deserve a frines like you hun.
you are amazinf. I live tiu so myxg

I am really not dont so swell. I am just so tired mr love

@Former-Member

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You know what you did to deserve our friendship, you where you! You where honest, understanding and compassionate to me from the word go, you never judged me and you have not walked away. So a big thankyou from the bottom of my heart for being the amazing person that you are.

I am assuming that the boys are home by now and that they are well and ok after the weekend with their father. I will be heading to bed soon Mel as night meds are kicking my butt. Please be safe tonight and check in whenever you are able to. Love you to the moon and back @Lee82

Good night my wonderful friends @Emelia8 @Bunniekins @Fluttershy1 @Zoe7 @outlander @Eve7 @Angels333 @NatureLover @Shaz51 @Maggie @Ant7 @MDT @Faith-and-Hope @Judi9877 I know as soon as I log off I am going to remember that I forgot to tag someone special, so if that's you please don't take it personally my brain is mush. @Anastasia it was you I am sorry I forgot.

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goodnight @Former-Member i really hope you get some good sleep


thinking of you @Lee82 💙

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hugs and hugs @Former-Member

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nite @Former-Member sleep well 🙂

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good night my lovely @Former-Member

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Hope you are well and truly asleep by now @Former-Member

@Lee82 @Eve7 @Shaz51 @outlander @MDT

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And you too @Zoe7

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