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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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Hi lovely @Lee82

He had a good day today just on our way home from drive ins. How are.tou did you have a good day?

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Hi @Former-Member

It sounds like you have had a very tough afternoon. I am really sorry to learn that you are struggling to cope with your thoughts. You wrote that no attention was needed but if you do need support off the forums please reach out to the help lines.

thinking of you Izzy and hoping you get some relief and rest,

Whitehawk

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That is fantastic to hear my love. What movie did you see?
not such a good day here but I spent a lot of it sleeping.
@Anastasia

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It was probably the strong emotions of happiness from this morning, she hates good feeling with such passion. I am never aloud to be that happy 😒 I learnt early on in life that, that kind of happiness is reserved for people who deserve it.

It's turned into a really bad night @Lee82 @and @Anastasia

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You do deserve it hun. You are entitled to happiness. you are worth it!
Is she an alter you can control?
I am here for you beautiful.
@Former-Member

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Such a shame @Former-Member

You so deserve happiness. I'm sorry about your night ☹️

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Thank you @Lee82

We saw Tenant, very bizaare movie which I had no idea what was going on for 98%of it 🤣

Home now and ready for bed I think. Big day.

I'm sorry your day wasn't great hun. I wish for a good day for you tomorrow. You deserve that xxx

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Thank you hun. I hope you have a restful sleep.
@Anastasia I haven't heard of that movie before.

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I am holding your hand sitting here with you.
I am giving you a hug and hoping that you will be ok my beautiful BFF. I love you unconditionally and hold you tight within my heart.
@Former-Member

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I can't control any of them, but most of them know to play by the rules and do but not this one. Her damage is done mentally never physically it's like she a record stuck on repeat going over every nasty thing that was said to us growing up and reminding us of our place in the world. @Lee82

@Former-Member , the thoughts are not of si, just nasty things. Thanks for checking in though.

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