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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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I'm sorry hun I'm not doing so good. I am safe promise just not good.
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All good my love, I just needed to know you where as ok as you can be. Love you to the moon and back. Hopefully we will both be ok to chat tonight. Missing you heaps. Love you to the moon and back. @Lee82

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@Former-Member @Lee82 - hey hey, how's you?
things aren't great right now

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Standing at Nat's door and I can't even knock

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@Former-Member I hope you did knock on Nats door. I know you were approaching this appointment with a sense of dread, so I really hope it ends up much better than you were anticipating. I should be around most of the afternoon if you need someone to unload to afterwards.

Emelia 🌷😄💕☀🌸

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I am sorry @Lee82

I didn't see your tag, are you feeling better now hun?

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@Former-Member Thinking of you hun.
love you forever ❤️

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Thinking of you @Former-Member 💜

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Thanks Em, but after a bad session I tend to shit down and sleep in the car all the way home. But it means a lot for you to have offered. I didn't knock on her door because she knew I was there. It's was almost as hard as last weeks session. I am extremely exhausted and am about to head to bed. I really hope your day was ok. You are very very dear to me lovely lady. @Emelia8

Mel, I am hoping you are ok and that you haven't had an extremely bad one. I have to go to bed, session with Nat was bad again. Love you 3000 @Lee82

@Anastasia , goodnight my wonderful friend I hope your night is an one.

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I am so sorry to hear your session with Nat didn't go well hun. I truly hope you can get a good rest tonight. Today has not been a good day for me at all and tonight is not going to be any better.
love you unconditionally my love.
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