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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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How are Tobes and cat?

@Zoe7

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They are good @Lee82 Cat had her check up and vaccinations yesterday. I take her back in 4 weeks to have her next ultrasound but everything looks good so we are not expecting to find anything. She has put on more weight and according to the vet is unbelievably healthy. The vet cannot believe how good she looks considering we thought it was termonal - my little miracle

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Oh wow @Zoe7 that is fantastic news. I'm so happy for her and of course you too babe. I'm so sorry I didn't even know she wasn't well hun.

poor Mr Boris has been neglected again as I am back at mums for a while. I go over and see him everyday to feed him and play with him a little but I can't have him at mums and I can't walk him at the moment cause of my anxiety.

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Cat had a major operation last year to remove some of her intestines and a mass attached to her bowel @Lee82 She wasn't expected to last more than a couple of months. When we got the results from all the tests and biopsy miraculously she was given a good prognosis as the cancer had not metastasized. Since then we have had one follow up ultrasound and she is due for another one. The gorgeous little girl is doing so well though and I value every day I have her for. 😺💖

I can imagine you miss Boris and he does you too. They are such wonderful companions also so you would be missing having him around 😢 Tobes is such a massive part of my life - everything revolves around him so you not having Boris with you would be horrible.

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Wow poor thing has been through a lot. I am so glad she is still with you hun. That is a miracle.
@Zoe7

I don't know what I am going to do with him when I go into hospital for 4 weeks. I have to find someone to take him as I can't really afford to have him in a pet hotel for that long. I will miss his cuddles so much.

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Have you thought about advertising for a dog sitter @Lee82?

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Mmm...I didn't think of that. That's a great idea @Zoe7 I might put it out there and see what happens. Thanks so much for the idea. 😉

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👍 @Lee82 I am off to bed Hon. Thank you for keeping me company

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You are very welcome. I hope you get some rest hun. Hope tomorrow is a better day for you.
@Zoe7 ❤️

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Good morning 😄💕@Former-Member @Lee82 @Anastasia

Izzy, do you have horse therapy today? 🐴

Emelia 🌸

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