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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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@Lee82 @Former-Member @NatureLover @Emelia8 and anyone else around.

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@Snowie How have you been doing hun?

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@Former-Member how you going hun?
I'm missing my BFF

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Sorry honey I am exhausted on 3 hours sleep I spent 10 and a 1/2 undercoating I am exhausted and sore. I am happy you maybe able to have your phone but don't be surprised if you are to exhausted to chat much and that is ok. The butterfly was done by someone on YouTube and I am not that clever or could I afford one of hers. How are you feeling this afternoon my love. @Lee82

Hiya @Snowie

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@Lee82 I know how hard it is to make that decision to go into hospital, especially when you have kids at home. It is a very brave decision that you are making. PLease remember that you will have all our support and love with you. Take care hun 💕💕

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Hey Em, you where right my psychologist was one of three in my city at the time. 10yrs was definitely a good run and who knows if I hadn't been assaulted last December I may have gotten longer. Hope you are ok beautiful @Emelia8

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This is lady that made the butterfly, I love her work!! I can only hope to be that good one day.

@Lee82 , @Emelia8 , @Angels333

I thought you lady's might enjoy this

https://youtu.be/iP71AfGP0_c

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Oh honey...no doubt you are exhausted after all that. Well don't for having the motivation and energy to do as much as you did hun. Another thing to be very proud of. Perhaps a nice warm bath to sooth your aches and pains.
I am doing ok. I am diamond painting trying to distract myself and stay present. I had a couple hours sleep in the afternoon as I wasn't feeling so well.
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Wow that is amazing how she uses the chain to make that pattern. Have you tried that before?

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Thank you so much @Snowie for your encouragement. I am very very worried about leaving the boys.

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