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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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It has not been great @Lee82 and sleep deprivation is not helping at all 😔 it's always challenging when child alters are distraught. Some days I just want it to all be over and today is that day, but I am keeping our promise and am safe. How are you holding up?

@Zoe7 , my beautiful friend thank you for your support even though you are dealing with so very much yourself. Please know I think of you often and wonder how you are doing. Save your words and your strength for the one who really needs it the most YOU. Sending you warm gentle hugs

@Emelia8 , I wish I really knew if you are ok and safe my friend. Huge hugs

@Anastasia, I have a photo to upload so I will take screenshots of the steps and post them as well.

I had a little pea in a pod today and it made me smile because of you Miss @Bunniekins

@Anastasia, this how you change your photo size

Hope that helps my friend.

Kinda miss chatting to you my lovely @NatureLover

@Eve7 , I really hope you are doing as ok as you can right now. Sending heaps of love and hugs

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Hugs gratefully accepted @Lee82 Just trying to find my bearings this afternoon after psych session and then going back to work afterwards for a meeting. I'll get there but you sitting with me is more than enough right now

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I am right here and not going anywhere. @Zoe7 ❤️

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As always @Former-Member your words and presence is enough. As I just said to @Lee82 - sitting with me and knowing you are all around is enough right now. I have a lot to process and I am the only one that can do that but knowing you are there to support me (especially since you are going through so much as well) is more than enough.

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I hear and feel your pain my love. Anything you want to chat about hun. I am here to listen or just sit with you babe. Wish there was so much more I can do. @Former-Member

Love you 3000 💗

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@Former-Member Hey sweetheart looking forward to the image coming up. Thank you for thinking of me :)xxx

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@Former-Member wrote:

Kinda miss chatting to you my lovely @NatureLover


I'm here @Former-Member ...had a very busy day today. But I've been conscious of you struggling with SI, and I wish things would ease for you...

Thank you for being so amazingly attentive to all your friends, even while you're battling terrible things 💜

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Thank you @Former-Member

I am looking forward to your photos opening 😊

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I am sorry I don't think I answered your question about the safe and sound protocol therapy Mel.
I have taken a week off all therapy and appointments I just can't do it right now, I am getting triggered so much that I can't cope right now. Take a breathe my love I will see Nat on Friday 🤦‍♂️ @Lee82

I have a question, is hair loss due to old age or stress because I can tell you if it's old age then I am lossing to much I'm not that old and if it's from stress then I am probably not lossing enough. 😂

Mental note for anyone with LBL do not, I repeat do not stop to play with your rain stick on the way to the bathroom. 😂😂😂😂😂😂

I am hoping everyone is having an ok night. @Lee82 @Anastasia @NatureLover @Bunniekins @Zoe7 , I hope your night is bearable my beautiful friend.

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Oh dear @Former-Member mentally noted do not play with one's rainstick on the way to the bathroom LOL That definitely made me giggle - I have images now of you rolling around with your rainstick now - I thought the idea was to shake it not roll with it ROFL

Got a little more cutting of cards to do tonight but everything else can wait Hon - tomorrow's lessons are all planned but have to make a start on Wednesday and Thursday's also.

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