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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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Morning Lee, I hope you managed to get some rest this morning and I really hope you spent the safely. Wishing very much that I could REALLYtalk to you. So much going on today that even if we could talk about it here it's still not for a public fourm site. 😪 Dont worry about about me I am just licking my metaphorical wounds.

How are you going today. So sorry I didn't check my phone before I went to bed otherwise I would have been up when you asked me. 😩 Please be safe my love. @Lee82

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Oh hun is there anything you can talk about on the forum? I truly wish I could be there to listen to all that you need to talk about. I feel very helpless and frustrated because I want to be able to do more than what I do.
please don't apologise for not being awake last night hun. I am glad you got some sleep in. I managed a little sleep too but feeling extremely exhausted today.
@Former-Member sending you a big hug beautiful ❤️❤️

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I know the feeling as I feel the same way. Can't really talk about not because of the guidelines it's just too personal. I mean I wouldn't mind our little circle of friends we talk to a lot knowing it's just the kinda of stuff that the rest of the world doesn't need to know.

like I said I just having a down moment and there is nothing really wrong just lots of little things that a getting to me and I don't have a friend irl that I can bounce stuff off with. Just plain miserable today.

snending you lots of love @Lee82

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Oh ok I understand now hun. Wish there was a private message board on the forum for stuff like that. Would be great to be able to talk about personal stuff like that with the people you trust the most.
I feel the same way hun as I don't have anyone irl that I can chat to too. It becomes very lonely as there is a lot that can't be said on this forum.
I am alwYs here for you hun and I love you very much.
@Former-Member

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@Anastasia , I am sorry I didn't reply to you last night😔 I am sorry your boy didn't really enjoy himself it must be hard balancing his needs and doing the stuff you enjoy as well. I always thought that people who take their pets on boats where very brave, I wouldn't cope but then again my puppy is a "little" special 😂😂😂 Pitt that the boat had issues as well.

With your photos that are too large are you uploading them from your phone?

Hope you have had an ok day my friend.

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Oh @Former-Member

Please never apologize hunny I understand completely x

Haha he was the best behaved "child" lol, need I say more. He slept soundly last night, wish I could show you my photo with him he's such a cutie. Yes I do everything from my phone and I'm technology challenged at the best of times. Took one of the harbour bridge just for you girls ☹️

How are you feeling hun, I saw today hasn't been easy for you. Here if you want to chat 😘

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Has anyone been in touch with the beautiful @Emelia8

I miss her 🌹

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@Former-Member How you doing hun?

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@Lee82 @Former-Member @Anastasia I do not have many words at the moment but sending you all love and hugs

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Oh hun thank you so much for using the little words you have to support us. I am here if need someone to talk to or if you just want someone to sit with you. Sending you a gentle hug my friend ❤️

@Zoe7

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