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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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That's great to hear hun. I'm hoping I won't be up much longer either as I have already taken my SP so hopefully they work better than last night.
@Zoe7

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We both had the same problem with meds not working last night @Lee82 so hoping that is not the case for either of us tonight. Just about to take mine too. Have given up on the card cutting - will do the rest at work tomorrow. I have a little time before my first class as I don't have to supervise anyone in the morning - then I have time in the afternoon to put them all together and give to the kids before the end of the day (that is the plan anyway).

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Sounds like a good plan @Zoe7 .
yea I don't think my meds are going to work tonight. I have a pounding headache and feeling very agitated.

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Do you have some pain relief to help with your headache @Lee82 ? I find it hard to sleep with a headache as well and that aggitation makes it doubly hard. Having a warm bath or even shower helps me with the aggitation but not so great for headaches

Do you find the more you stress about the meds not working the less they actually do work?

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Yes definitely when I think about my meds not working it makes them work less. F DGG ingg thy think I can move right now @Zoe7 feeling light hradd and sic

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Hi @Lee82,

Sorry to see you are not doing so well tonight. Please remember to reach out to a support, professional or otherwise, if you need assistance or care tonight.

Do take care.

Warmest,

Basil.

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Yeah I get the same sometimes @Lee82 but generally now I can relax a bit more before bed than I used to.

I will sit here with you until I get sleepy Hon

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Oh @Lee82

Sorry you have a headache sweetheart. I'm not surprised you've had a rough day. Thinking of you and hoping you get a good night's sleep, love always x

@Zoe7 I didn't see how you hurt your finger hun, hope you're ok x

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Got it caught in the handle of a shopping bag @Anastasia and dislocated it. It is pretty sore but should heal okay in a few weeks as there was no break.

How has your day been?

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Ouch @Zoe7 you poor thing ❤️

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