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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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Well I'm a country girl and we do league not Ariel ping pong😂😂😂😂😂 love ya babe @Lee82

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Haha Hahaha....😂😂 I'm a country girl too.m and we love our afl. We have a few afl players that are from my town. But fair call hun.

love you more 😉

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I haven't seen the opera house since I was 10!!!! But of course that was like only 10ish years ago surely 😂😂😂😂😂😂 Look like a amazing day to be on the harbour lucky soul you.

it's a little more complicated then just Reno's my friend. He is actually my ex husband we had separated last December and he came home to be my full time carer temporarily and the reasons he left still hanging in the air between. We get amazing well because we where besties long before we where a couple.

pancakes were devine too much though. I haven't stopped playing with my rain stuck I love it so much.

Hope you are feeling really relaxed since your day. Huge hugs my friend. @Anastasia

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Just waiting for the picture to come through sweetie. How are you doing. @Lee82

@outlander 💜🦕🦕🦕🦕💜

@Zoe7 💖🌹🌹🌹🌹💖

@NatureLover 💜🍄🍄🍄🍄🍄💜

@Bunniekins 💕🦉🦇🦉🦇🦉🦇💕

@Fluttershy1 💙🍭🍭🍭🍭💙

@Anastasia 🧡🙈🙉🙊🧡

Sending everyone some love

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I had more pics that I specifically took for you all but they are too big and I can't upload them or they have people in them☹️ @Former-Member

Oh hun I'm sorry, I didn't realise. It's so good you are great friends still and that he is there to support you. It emphasizes what a wonderful woman you are 🌹

I'm glad you enjoyed your pancakes, a lovely start to the day 💜

It was quite a stressful day sadly, lots went wrong with the boat, plus we took our dog so that just added its own world of challenges. My boy did not cope very well. I'm proud of him, he pushed through and overall even though he said he'll never come again I think (hope) he will. Exhausted now and off to cook dinner.

Are you having a special birthday dinner?

How are you @Lee82 ? I'm sorry about your Mum, that is awful. Last thing you need and not at all helpful!!!! Makes me cross to hear. My boys father (my ex) is the same. No comprehsion and in denial when it comes to mi.

Hello @Zoe7 @Fluttershy1 @Bunniekins @outlander @NatureLover @Eve7 @ love to all ❤️

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Bugger about the issues on the boat @Anastasia But you got out and did something and that experience whether good or bad is still one you all had together. 👍

@Former-Member @Lee82 Having some issues with trying to cut my cards - very hard with one hand so is going to take a lot longer than originally it would have ...just gotta do it though hey. Got a few other things to get done also but luckily I did all the housework Friday night and yesterday. Going to put the boxes I need to in the car now for tomorrow - didn't do all the marking but can do a little each day (when I have time) at work to catch up.

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@Anastasia I'm so sorry to hear about your day. Was hoping it was going to be a good day for all. At least he tried hun like you said. Definitely 10 points for that. I hope he gives it another go too.
not doing the best right now. Had a pretty bad panic attack after mum come up behind me to ask me a question and scared the s**t out of me. She didn't mean it and felt pretty terrible afterwards but now I have a massive headache and I am very sensitive to noise and touch right now. I ha e just had my SP so hopefully I will get to sleep soon but not holding my breath.

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Oh hun any way you can get some help at work with things like that tomorrow? I hope you are able to get a decent sleep tonight hun and that your finger doesn't give you too much grief tomorrow. I know how important going to work is for you right now .

@Zoe7 sending you a little more strength to get through your week and sealing it with a hug 💗

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I am getting through the card cutting slowly @Lee82 The pain killers are helping a lot tonight so I should be able to get it all done. My hand is aching but there is less pain👍 My next two days are already planned for work so that is one less job to do. I am still really tired so don't think it will be too long before I am in bed Hon. Will wash up soon (one-handed ), finish what I can of the card cutting then snuggle on the couch with Tobes in front of the tv.

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