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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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Wow you have a big family. Do you see any of them now?
So you grew up with your sister and brother from your dads first marriage?
Do you have any plans for tomorrow hun?
@Former-Member

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@Lee82 - missing you a lot hope you are well xx

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@Former-Member - I miss you hunni, I hope you are well. I'm sorry I haven't been around much but you are more than welcome to tag me in your posts xx

who am I speaking to

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@Fluttershy1 Miss you too hun...how you feeling?

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@Lee82 - pretty not good, my world is falling apart, feel like I'm failing everyone at the moment, feeling like I'm letting down a support group because I have been putting myself first.
I keep becoming switchy, been having several panic attacks or dissociative episodes.....

I'm not sure how I feel.
I'm safe

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I wanted to be the first to wish you a Happy Birthday beautiful. I really wish I can be there with you to spoil you and celebrate your birthday cause you deserve every bit of it. Thank you so much for being such an amazing friend to me. You are such a special person to me and I thank god that I met you 5 months ago even though I feel like I have known you for years. You will always hold a very special place in my heart my love. The connection I feel is so strong And I am so thankful for our friendship. You have saved me so many times hun. I love you unconditionally and will always be here for you no matter what.
@Former-Member 🎂🎁🎈🎉

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I completely understand the feeling of failure as I am feeling that way at the moment too hun.
I am so sorry. Wish there was more I can do for you. Have you been using your self care tools?
@Fluttershy1

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Yep @Lee82,

they haven't been helpful, been fighting SH urges but I've kept myself safe and I'm staying safe. I just feel like everything is a effort.... I just want to curl up in a ball and cry....

@Lee82 - Can we go to my thread?

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Of course we can sweets. Just tag me in a post and I'll follow you there

@Fluttershy1

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@Zoe7 how are you doing hun?

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