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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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@Former-Member - how's you hun?
@Lee82 - missing you and I love you x

@Anastasia - things are rough, constantly crying and switching I feel lost and numb. Love you lots x

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I am so sorry that things a tough right now for you hun. I can imagine it would be very tiring switching all the time. Sending you hugs and love your way.
@Fluttershy1 ❤️💜💚💙

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I am going to be selfish, you bother because you love me🥰 I am so very sorry that she gave you are hard time, you definitely don't deserve or need that right now. I hope your night meds keep you asleep and safe all night honey. I will be here to chat with you tomorrow if you are up for it. Love you 3000 and so much more Mel. @Lee82

Hi Jayde, I am so sorry you are having a rough night sweetheart. Sending you loads and loads of hugs princess @Fluttershy1

@outlanderand @Zoe7 sending you both loads of love and all the hugs you can handle.

@Bunniekins @NatureLover @Eve7 @Anastasia I hope you are all settle in for a nice night.

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Yes that is so true my love..😘 and that's not selfish at all.
I am way too anxious and upset right now not too sure if my night meds are going to work.
I am always up for a chat with you hun.
love you always and forever my beautiful BFF

@Former-Member

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Thank you for your thoughts @outlander they are very much appreciated. I hope your headache has gotten better hun. 💚

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Thank you @Former-Member and I hope the night is kind to you.

💜💛💜

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@Anastasia how is your night going hun?

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I know that feeling if I am too worked up they never work for me either. Not sure how much sleep I will be getting tonight, it's always rough the night before the day that I was told all my life that the biggest mistake and failure was born. @Lee82

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Oh honey...that is s**t and not true at all. I cannot believe you were told that babe. That breaks my heart hearing that. I am extremely grateful you were born my love and very blessed to have met you.
@Former-Member

Can I ask do you only have one sister or do you have more siblings? Don't need to answer that babe if you don't want to.

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I have and older sister and a younger brother from my dads first wife then I have 4 younger brothers to his second. I don't even know their youngest boy he is 20 this year. Love you @Lee82

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