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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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Hey little one...how have you been?

@outlander

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Hey @Lee82 tired tonight. Im sorry i dint have much advice atm-see not coping thread but im thinking of you 🧡💚

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No need to apologise sweets. I'm so sorry to hear your are not doing well. 😔

@outlander

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Good morning to you 🌷🌻🌺@Former-Member @Lee82 @Eve7

I hope today is a better day for you than your last, and that each day forward looks increasingly bright.

Fond thoughts are with each of you. 💓

Emelia 🌸🍃

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Thank you @Emelia8 I hope your Monday has been kind to you hun so far. Sending you some gentle hugs 💗

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Hey beautiful I really hope you are ok hun. I haven't stopped thinking about you my BFF.
sending you all my love sweets and some extra cuddles.
@Former-Member ❤️💙💜💚💛🧡🤎🖤

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Hun f you can can you please support this pist so I j ow you are ok.
@Former-Member

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@Emelia8 💜

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@Former-Member ❤️

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I am sorry for making you worry. I feel like...........

that's the problem I don't know how I feel and I can't feel. If you could call my state of mind safe then yes I am safe. I am safe from SI at least. I can't pretend anymore, I am not going to fake it anymore. The darkness has swallowed me and has a real tight hold. I start my new therapy tomorrow, which has to be an hour a day for five days. Counsellor has told me that in those five days to limit my time on here, watching YouTube's and tv. I am to listen to calming meditation music for 90% of my waking hours there is no junk food or things that contain added sugars. I am about to walk deep into my :pile_of_poo: and I am hoping that when it's done I will be honestly safe. Thank you all for being who you all are to me, supporting me and never judging me. See you all on the other side of this therapy.

@Lee82 @Emelia8 @outlander, I know I usually tag so many more of you but right now I can't even manage that sorry.

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