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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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Are you ok babe @Lee82

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Not doing so well babe. Sorry.

I saw you really enjoyed your walk. I am so glad it was beneficial for you honey.

@Former-Member ❤️

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Would you please just reach out to me when you are not ok my love!!!!!!!!!

That's what friends are for, that is what this place is for.

Love you 3000 @Lee82

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I'm sorry babe just struggling to put anything into words at the moment.
my senses have become super sensitive at the moment. I'm not sure what that is about but anyone touches me and I flinch, I can't handle loud noises right now even the daylight seems to bright.
@Former-Member

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I am so sorry honey, I am wishing I was there to actually sit beside and give you a hug as long as I was aloud with how you are feeling right now. Is there somewhere a little darker that you can sit and do some breathing exercises or something to help you feel a little more centered. @Lee82

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I would really like that right now. @Former-Member
I am just laying on the couch with 3 blankets on top of me with the tv on low for some noise but all the bustling around me in the kitchen with mum cooking, kids playing and conversations going on around me is a lot to handle. I am trying to stay centred as best I can by trying to join in on the conversation and concentrating on what's being said.

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You are doing as much as you can right now to make yourself feel safe and be present for your family, well done honey.

Love you to infinity and beyond.

I will leave you be for a while, but I am around for a bit so just tag me if you want company @Lee82

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Thank you so much for checking in on me honey. It means the world to me that someone cares and that someone is you.

@Former-Member

i will check in with you a little later. I think I am going to try and see if I can maybe sleep a little then I don't have to deal with these feelings.
love you 3000. ❣️

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I just reread my message to @Former-Member I just want to say that I really didn't word the first part very well. I am so sorry my brain isn't working very well at the moment.
what I should have mentioned is that I am truly grateful for everyone's support on this forum. I don't know what I would do without everyone's support and concern. You all have helped me one way or another and I am truly appreciative of that. I don't feel so alone anymore.
I am so sorry that was super insensitive of me.

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Hey @Former-Member @Lee82 Just checking in on both of you. I can see it has not been a great day so sending my love and letting you both know I am thinking of you.

@Former-Member A great job today in looking after yourself when you needed to earlier too - it is really important we are the best we can be to assist in supporting others and often that means a little time out and I see you did that today 😁

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