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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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Sitting with you @Former-Member @Lee82

Please take care.

Good night 😴

Sherry 💜

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I'm so sorry I didn't mean to worry you. @Former-Member

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Thank you very much @Former-Member , I hope you slept well. 🦋🦋🦋

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Good morning @Lee82, 💜💜💜

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Hey gorgeous. How are you feeling today?
@Former-Member

honey I'm so sorry about last night. I didn't mean to worry you I just couldn't get to the phone. I had been trying to contain my pain attack for a while and I couldn't do it any longer and then you know what happens afterwards.
I hope you were able to get some rest.

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My gorgeous friend, I knew you had a panic attack last night and I just hoped with everything that I had that you would be ok. My last message was for you this morning when you woke from your flashback as I know that monster gets you every time. I wanted to remind you that we are all here for you always.

I did feel a little guilty for going to bed before I knew you where ok, but I listened to my body and I was emotionally exhausted and needed it.

I am ok, I have done my meditation and will be going for a walk shortly. I am actually going to try a bush walk today, something I haven't been able to do since December.

@Lee82 , how are you this morning, did you make it through the night unharmed?

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Please don't ever feel guilty for looking after yourself honey. I'm so glad you made that decision. I know you would have stayed if you could have.
I am so happy babe that you have already done some self care this morning and are going to continue that later in with your bush walk. That makes me smile. 😊

I am extremely tired this morning as I didn't get much sleep and no the monster didn't stay away. I feel like I have a hangover and have a massive headache.
@Former-Member enjoy your walk babe.
love you always ❤️

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@Lee82

Love you 3000 beautiful

I will check in later today my friend. 💖💜

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Good morning @Former-Member 🌻

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Good morning @Lee82 . 🌺 My real second name is Lee. Did you choose your profile name for any particular reason I wonder? Only if you wish to share and it doesnt risk anonymity rules.

Do you have any plans for today? Kids still home schooling?

Hi @Former-Member 🤗

Sherry 💕

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