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Darkness

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Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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Lee82Senior Contributor

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Thank you @DJMasters that is actually a pic of a coffee I made as I am a barista. appreciate your kindness. 💐

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Unknown userMember

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Thanks for responding @Lee82 and I agree it takes courage to talk about what you're feeling, particularly if you're feeling vulnerable. It's great you're not taking it off the table though. Take care...🌻

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Lee82Senior Contributor

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Thank you @Appleblossom I am sending you a gentle hug and hoping your day improves for you.
💐❤️

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DJMastersSenior Contributor

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@Lee82 that's great....I used to work for a coffee company and used to train barista's......

Coffee is always a comfort....lol 🙂

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MDTSenior Contributor

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I have yeah @DJMasters
I'm quite tired atm. May need one after k eat lunch. Need to be back at 2:15 and they seem to be taking a while to make my sandwich.
Feel pretty rank. Just trying to survive atm

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AppleblossomSenior Contributor

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Thank you @Lee82

@DJMastersThey are not my paintings, but I do appreciate art and think about it. I share it becasue it communicates in such a different way to words.

I have been good in last couple years and manage to keep coffees down. No more than 2 per day.

I will put a good hour into Beethoven before OT today. Bye for now.

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Unknown userMember

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Hey Mel, what sort of friend would I be if I turned my back on you? As for getting shutdown every time you ask for my support or you sharing too much, here is what I understand and please @Former-Member correct me if I am wrong.

Your sharing as far as I see it doesn't break any rules, the problem is that when we are both sharing but in obvious distress or as they call crisis. Like yesterday you in my eyes where definitely in crisis and in so much distress, in that moment I couldn't help you and neither could anyone of your other fourm friends. You definitely needed more help by more qualified people even hospital as I suggested. That conversation went on for a really long time and it MAY have been causing distress for others. Please hear when I say it wasn't what you where sharing, it's hearing the pain and distress from our friend that may have been causing others stress.

We have come a long way from the first month or so and have worked out better what we can share and what we can't. I know just as some of our other friends that when we get into crisis it's kinda hard to see that ourselves because we are reaching out in the only place a lot of us feel safe to do so. So as long as we are aware when we get into crisis and are following the guidelines I think we are ok.

Love you 3000 to infinity and beyond Always @Lee82

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Unknown userMember

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My paint room 😭😠😤 I am starting to get impatient with this process. I am feeling a little lost today so I am sitting down here having a small snack and a cuppa. I have been assured that it will be ready for use this Sunday. So if you don't hear from me for days on end I am ok just catching up on 5 weeks without my calm space. 😂🤣😂🤣😂🤣😂🤣😂🤣

@Appleblossom @MDT @DJMasters @Lee82 @Zoe7 @outlander @Eve7 @Shaz51 @Maggie @Angels333 @Faith-and-Hope @Emelia8 sending you all my love guys, you and the others I haven't tagged are worth your weight in gold. Thank you for being you

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DJMastersSenior Contributor

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@Former-Member sending you good vibes and wishes that it will all be completed by the weekend. 🙂

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NatureLoverSenior Contributor

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Nice to see your large painting space, @Former-Member 🙂 That will be great when it's completed!

Thinking of you, @Appleblossom ...

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