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Darkness

Unknown userMember23 Apr 2020, 7:03 pm AEST

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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Lee82Senior Contributor19 Aug 2020, 12:53 pm AEST

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I'm so sorry hun. I just feeling like I have over stepped a little. I am so lost at the moment. I feel myself sliding down even further. I am not sure which way to turn anymore.
@Former-Member

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AppleblossomSenior Contributor19 Aug 2020, 12:58 pm AEST

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@Lee82 @Former-Member @MDT @Zoe7 @outlander

Wish things were better. Pretty sad myself atm, but sending gentle warm vibes.

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DJMastersSenior Contributor19 Aug 2020, 1:06 pm AEST

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@MDT keep progressing, keep up wiht your gratitudes.....sometimes it hard but worth it in the end. Hi five for the day, have you had your coffee for the day?

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DJMastersSenior Contributor19 Aug 2020, 1:08 pm AEST

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@Appleblossom sending good vibes n wishes to you. Your painting is inspiring 🙂

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DJMastersSenior Contributor19 Aug 2020, 1:12 pm AEST

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@Lee82 just reading your posts. Big hugs to you. know you are in a safe place here and we are here to stand with you. I know how you feel though, was feeling that recently so can relate to a certain level. Be strong, know that there are people that care and ready to listen. 🙂 The sun will shine 🙂

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Lee82Senior Contributor19 Aug 2020, 1:16 pm AEST

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Hey @Former-Member thank you for your post. it's just so hard to talk to counsellors that don't know my situation. Having to explain myself each and every time I speak to them really stresses me out. I find it hard at the best of times to open up. I will however keep that in mind.
thank you

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Lee82Senior Contributor19 Aug 2020, 1:21 pm AEST

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I feel like every time I try and reach out to you and ask for your support I am shut down by others. I am very scared because I don't want you to lose your right to be here and get the support you deserve. I am extremely afraid that I will lose you as a friend and I don't think I could handle that. I care about you way too much and I love you way too much for that to happen.
@Former-Member

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Lee82Senior Contributor19 Aug 2020, 1:22 pm AEST