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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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Hey Mel, how are you going today? It's a crafty day I don't know weather that is productive or not, but I am very relaxed so that's a good thing after the night I had. @Lee82

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Just for you @Bunniekins

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💝🌸 @Lee82 🌸💝 just wanted you know I am thinking of you, hope you are ok my love.

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@Former-Memberyummmmm my awesome friend

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Hey hun. I am not doing so good. Mum has been giving me grief. She is really just not a nice person at all. She makes me so so sad and she makes me hate myself so much more. 😢

how has your day of crafts gone? Did you paint your gnomes? They are so so cute.
thinking of you too my BFF and sending you all my love. 💗
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Hey honey, so sorry your egg donor was on your case today and no she is definitely not a nice person.

No gnome painting as they are still a little wet. Painting didn't go well either but I should have been prepared for that. It never turns out if I am preoccupied. I have been very worried about a friend, I still don't know if she is really ok or not. Sometimes it's hard to tell if she is being mindful of what she tells me. It hard feeling so useless when a friend is hurting big time.

How is your night going my love? @Lee82

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How can I ever find the right path and get better when you have a person who beats you down all of the time. I am just so worthless and a waste of space. I don't k ow what I am doing here. I really don't.

im so sorry you are worried about your friend hun. If I think it is who I think it is I am a little worried too. She came back so hopeful but only to have gone again so quickly without any response. We can only try and keep the light shinning for her and hope she will come back soon and that she is ok. Trust me I know how it feels when you are so very worried about a person all you want to do is be able to pick the phone up or knock on the door and see how they are.
now if it's not who I think it is then I have just made a full of myself....lol

how are you doing tonight?
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Hey @Lee82

I'm sorry, it sounds like this eveing is really hard on you. It can be so painful to feel so worthless, but please know, you are so valued here in this community. Please continue to share with us and know we are sitting with you. And remember to reach out to SCBS or Lifeline if you need.

Warmest wishes,

Basil.

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Thanks @Former-Member for you kind words. I will keep that in mind.

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You goose, yes I am worried about Em but that is not whom I was speaking of. 😂 I love you. @Lee82 by the way I was talking about you

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