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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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Sending you huge hugs honey. I am doing ok, but you know the sun has gone down and the madness has begun. I am going to do my self care and I will be back in a little bit. @Lee82

@Emelia8 , I will let Kimmy reply. Thanks lovely

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@Former-Member I like you too sweetheart kimmy. Take care hunny. Love peaxx

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Hey my wonderful friends, unfortunately I am off for the night. Hopefully you all going to get a decent sleep. Chat tomorrow. @Bunniekins @Emelia8 @Lee82 @Zoe7 @NatureLover @outlander

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goodnight @Former-Member i hope you sleep well

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Good night @Former-Member . I look forward to chatting again tomorrow, if you're up to it.

Sleep well.

Emelia 🌸💤

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@Former-Member ... Oh no ... I'm so sorry to hear that you are now in the Emergency Department. At least you are somewhere that you will remain safe. Has Sean arrived home and arranged for a hospital visit? Oh dear ... please be okay. I hope you will be well enough and safe enough to go home soon. But I worry that it isnt safe for you right now. Let Sean and the medical experts make that decision on your behalf. Your wellbeing and safety needs to be first and foremost, even if that means staying in hospital overnight or however long it takes.

I was about to head off to bed now, but I will wait up for a while to await further news. And like @outlander , I am here for you if you need someone to sit with you. Sitting with you and thinking of you, no matter what.

Emelia 💕🌸

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Thanks guys, chest pains over the last couple of days but doctor doesn't seem to think I too bad. Go to bed Em, promise I will chat tomorrow. @outlander @Emelia8

Flashbacks to 16 yr old trauma making it really hard to deal and try sticking an anxious Kimmy with a needle 😭

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Sitting with you @Former-Member i will be up for a while yet if you need any company

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Okay @Former-Member 💕

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Babe I hope you are ok. I am really worried about you. Please let us know as soon as you can how your doing.
love you to infinity and beyond

sending you a gentle hug my sis ❤️
@Former-Member

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