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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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Are you still around Mel? @Lee82

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I'm here hun. @Former-Member

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How are you doing my love? Have you started your angel? @Lee82

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No not yet hun. I am just laying around. How are you doing? When is your chiropractor appointment?

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That was this morning, it was bearable. My neck, back and hips where out but because he is wonderful and knowing how much pain him touching me causes me he had me off the table in five minutes. It was instant relief from my head ache and back pain. My boy is good, better now though mumma brought him take away for lunch. He is trying to get rid of his beer belly but loves his food too much and my baking. I read the first chapter of my book and put it down because I want to check in here and if I didn't stop reading there you probably wouldn't have heard from me till tomorrow when I had finished the book.

Please tell me about you? I am worried @Lee82

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Hey my beautiful friend, it was easier before December we had it worked out but I guess that is just how it goes. How are you doing, I feel bad that I rarely ask you how you are getting on 😞 bad friend😞 sending you very gentle but very loving hugs @NatureLover

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How are you beautiful Miss Zoe? I hope you have time to unwind this weekend and that Toby cuddles are plenty. @Zoe7

How is my princess pea doing? Hoping you have a "pea"ceful weekend with some gentle self care my friend. @Bunniekins

Beautiful Eve, just wanting you to know that I think of you often and hope you are doing ok my friend. @Eve7

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I am so glad hun you made it through your chiropractic appointment. That is fantastic and even bette that it has made a difference.
so great to hear you boy is doing well. Just like my boy (Mr9) whom absolutely loves his food.
I am so very happy that you are enjoying your book beautiful. That is a great distraction and even better that you can concentrate on it. So so happy for you.
I am ok. Just wanting the day to go by quickly. I am sleeping as much as I can so I am not tempted by anything. Mum has called me a million times today.
sending you a great big hug my sis.
(I hope you don't mind me calling you that.)

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Well I don't like your mother but I am glad she is checking in on you. If I could I would also be calling a million times this weekend. You can call me whatever you are comfortable with and on that subject would you prefer I didn't call you "my love"? All good if you don't I just never asked if you where comfortable with it. Sorry for not asking in the first place.

I am currently watching paint pouring on YouTube, some of them really annoy me and others are simply amazing @Lee82

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Of course I don't mind you calling me my love. 😊

I think I have called you that a couple times too...🤭

Does it relax you to watch those types of videos?
Is hubby home yet?
I am listening to music atm.
@Former-Member

I wish it was you calling me instead....lol

she is doing my head in.

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