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Darkness

Unknown userMember23 Apr 2020, 7:03 pm AEST

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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Lee82Senior Contributor25 Apr 2020, 9:28 pm AEST

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I use to love reading but can't concentrate enough to read. I use to play the guitar but get frustrated with it now. I am in the middle of watching all the fast and the furious movies at the moment. Can't really do much more than that at the moment.
Sorry @outlander I am not good company at the moment. How are your packages coming along?

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outlanderSenior Contributor25 Apr 2020, 9:37 pm AEST

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that's ok @Lee82 like you ive lost a lot of concentration, motivation and the ability to enjoy the things I use to or to do new things too so I get it.
if watching movies is all you feel able to do then that's ok.
ive finished the packages, I managed to donate 8 very large packages but im not in a financial situation to be able to do anymore.
business for me has basically gone bust and I have a lot of stock and no interest unfortunately. hopefully closer towards mothers day itll pick up for a few more orders.

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Lee82Senior Contributor25 Apr 2020, 9:55 pm AEST

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I hope it picks up for you soon @outlander. I know it must be frustrating. Your dealing with a lot at the moment too which doesnt help at all. These are stressful times. I have lost my job because of this situation we are in.

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outlanderSenior Contributor25 Apr 2020, 10:02 pm AEST

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thanks @Lee82
im sorry to hear about your job, that must be very stressful and difficult for you. I do hope some things can start to reopen soon and that youll get your job back even if its part time for now till things can be fully operational again

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Lee82Senior Contributor25 Apr 2020, 10:07 pm AEST

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Thanks @outlander. you have anything planned for tomorrow?

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outlanderSenior Contributor25 Apr 2020, 10:09 pm AEST

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no not really @Lee82 probably just abit of cleaning up and studying.
im still quite unwell so not really feeling up for to much either and have the drs on Monday to see if the tests have provided some answers.
what about you?

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Lee82Senior Contributor25 Apr 2020, 10:21 pm AEST

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No nothing planned for tomorrow. Stuck at mums being watched ever you step I make. Feeling like a prisoner 😞

Sending you good wishes for Monday @outlander I hope you get the results you need to help you feel better. 💗

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outlanderSenior Contributor25 Apr 2020, 10:27 pm AEST

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that's really tough @Lee82 I hope you might find something nice for yourself to do even if its an extra long shower or a bubble bath or something simple.
Thanks, im hoping theres some answers too

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Lee82Senior Contributor25 Apr 2020, 10:33 pm AEST

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Might see if I am 'allowed' to take the kids for a walk tomorrow. I think I need some alone time with them. Make sure they are ok. The past couple days have been tough on them. @outlander

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outlanderSenior Contributor25 Apr 2020, 10:35 pm AEST

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I hope youll be allowed to @Lee82
a half hour or an hour I don't think would do any harm esp since your with your kids

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