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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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I'm so sorry about the 1 hr walking restriction @NatureLover I know how important walking is for you so I can imagine that will be hard for you. May need to just spend more time in the backyard for now perhaps. Thinking of you hun and sending you hugs. 💕

thank you so much pea. I really appreciate that and will make sure I keep that in mind the next time I can't sleep. @Bunniekins 💗

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I am ok my love, I have spent most of today asleep. We had our vibration lounge delivered and set up for us today, before they arrived I had been accidentally scared and was just coming back from a panic attack. So I was in fight or flight mode and I didn't realise that there would be an unknown male coming with the lady😭😭 So after half an hour I was in full panic mode again. Feeling a little better now though. I am heading begrudgingly to shower and eat and will be asleep again in no time. Hoping very much we can can up soon. Love you 3000 @Lee82

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Oh I am so sorry to hear that honey! That must have been terrible. I am glad to hear that you are feeling a little better. I am also glad you were able to get some rest as I know how tiring panic attacks are and how hard it is to calm down from them.
missing you my beautiful friend

love you always!!
@Former-Member

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@Lee82 wrote:

I'm so sorry about the 1 hr walking restriction @NatureLover I know how important walking is for you so I can imagine that will be hard for you. May need to just spend more time in the backyard for now perhaps. Thinking of you hun and sending you hugs. 💕


Thanks, that's kind of you @Lee82 ❤ Yes, am very grateful for the backyard.

Hope your anxiety lets you sleep tonight...

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@Lee82 Hey Lee82 xxx

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Hey pea. How was your day?

@Bunniekins

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Thanks @NatureLover I hope so too. I hope you have a relaxing night my friend.

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@Lee82 I had a busy day cleaning 😄 and seeing daughter which is always nice. Lee82 where is Nikki? I must have missed a post of hers .... is she away?

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So happy you were able to catch up with your daughter pea. Nikki had a pretty bad day today and has been dealing with panic attacks and trying to rest all day. She popped in earlier with a post about her day and to say that she is going to have a shower, dinner and then most likely back to bed.
Do you have any plans for tomorrow?

@Bunniekins

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sending love @Former-Member


@Bunniekins @Lee82
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