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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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@NatureLover Thank you so much for your support. ❤️

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Thank you @Shaz51 hope you are having a relaxing night tonight. 💗

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My understanding of disassociating is that it is your minds way of trying to escape the pain/hurt your feeling. Please promise me you will mention this to your MH team.

Yes please send me a picture and I will try and find a matching one. Just call it Izzy, it's ok people never really use my name anyway and it doesn't bother me at all.

You haven't been selfish at all my love you needed to be supported this afternoon and I am so glad I was able to be here for you for a change. I am listening to "Thank you" right now thinking of you always my love. I love you 3000 to infinity and beyond Always @Lee82

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No my teddy will be called Izzy-Nikki.
Thank you so much hun for being here for me. I know things are tough for you right now and knowing that you are still able to support me means more to me than I can explain. I love you with every bit of my heart nikki!
I am feeling so so sick right now. I can't stop shaking and my jaw is so d sad o guy kjfxc.

hutf. Gjghf

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I am sorry you are feeling sick and your jaw is tight. I can tell you have hit a panic attack my love and that I am afraid I can't help with tonight, it makes me tear up that I can't but I know I am not emotionally stable enough for that. Love you heaps

@NatureLover @Lee82 @Shaz51

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@Lee82 can you tell me 5 things that are in the room?

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I can't @NatureLover

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I'm sh sirry @Former-Member @I'm si sorry

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@Lee82 I'm concerned for you, is it a panic attack? Please try to slow your breathing down - it's important

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Yes

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