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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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I am soooooo glad you found your reason here babe because I would be lost without you and would not cope.
you have not added to my stress at all babe.
I love hearing from you. It makes me feel less alone and it makes me feel loved and supported.
@Former-Member

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Hey babe how are things going with Sean? How is your dad? Any chance of you going to visit him soon?
@Former-Member

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I will always be here supporting you and loving you. You will never be alone while you still want me as your friend. Things are good with Sean, he is doing everything he possibly can to support me and help me get better. Sometimes it feels like we never broke up and then when I am like I have been since Sunday it's like why, what's he doing here. He hasn't left my side tonight because of how bad I am. Thank you for reminding me about my dad because I forgot to send mum as message about going to see them this week.

How are you boys doing with this latest homeschooling round? @Lee82

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I am so glad you have him by your side hun. You are very lucky to have someone like that that cares about you so very much. I am very grateful to him for looking after my BFF.
the boys are doing ok with remote learning however it's only been 2 days, so ask me again next week and I'm sure it will be a different story.
@Former-Member

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I will always want you as my friend hun. That will never ever change no matter what. @Former-Member

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☺️ Thank you beautiful ☺️ @Lee82

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@Former-Member 💜💚💙💛🧡

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Good morning @Former-Member and @Lee82 ...thinking of you both and wishing you a better day today, with some peace and hope in it.

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Good morning @NatureLover how you feeling today hun?

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Good morning beautiful. How was your night?
just want to let you know that I am thinking of you always. ❤️
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