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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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sending heaps of love and calming hugs @Former-Member i hope your panic eases soon. i know about those siren triggers. it still makes me very anxious too (and sometimes panic attacks too) but not as much as 5 yrs ago)

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I'm so sorry hun the monster has been around today. I wish it wasn't so strong and controlling. 😞

Thinking of you always my love.
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I hope you can rest @outlander the next couple days hun. Sounds pretty sore. Thinking of you too babe

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Thank you little one. I hope you are able to rest with your injury. @outlander

@Lee82 , has that pic come through my love? I am sorry the monster has paid you a visit today as well. Loving you always my dear friend.

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Oh my gosh!! I love it!! ☺️ That has put a smile on my face and made my day. Thank you thank you gorgeous that was so thoughtful of you. I love it. I have taken a snapshot of it to keep on my phone always.
@Former-Member

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💝🌸 @Lee82 🌸💝

💖🦖 @outlander 🦖💖

💖🌵 @NatureLover 🌵💖

💖👩🏼‍🏫 @Zoe7 👩🏼‍🏫💖

💖💐 @Faith-and-Hope 💐💖

💖☃️ @Snowie ☃️💖

💖🍭 @Fluttershy1 🍭💖

💖🚘 @Sans911 🚘💖

💖🍏 @Appleblossom 🍏💖

💖🍰 @Shaz51 🍰💖

💖🦋 @Maggie 🦋💖

Thank you for your friendship and support lovely people 💜Nikki

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Hey @Former-Member - I'm really sorry I haven't been around lately I've been in a really bad place and I've just left without saying anything but I'm slowly coming back.
I hope you are okay.

i love you 💕💕

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Good morning Mel, sending you all of my love. @Lee82

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@Former-Member wrote:

@NatureLover , hoping your cleaning is going well and that you are being gentle with yourself.


Thank you so much for thinking of me, I really needed that, Nikki ❤️

I hope today is a better day for you with no sirens and no monster @Former-Member

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@Lee82 I'm really sorry to hear that your brother is moving overseas for a while, that's a blow. And I am also hoping your back gets better very quickly...

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@Former-Member what a beautiful picture 💕

Hoping there are some good moments in your day today 💜

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