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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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I completely understand that hun. Same here. Nothing much happening. Still in a lot of back pain.
@Former-Member

also got a little heart breaking news today. My brother is moving overseas to live for a while. The only person in my life that I have somewhat of a close relationship with. The one person irl I can somewhat confide in. The one stable male figure in my sons lives. 😢😢

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@outlander How you feeling today hun?

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struggling abit and nursing an injury @Lee82 but otherwise ok

im sorry things are so tough for you atm too

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I'm so sorry to hear that @outlander how did you injury yourself? Or is it from your procedure on Friday?

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I cant really be specific at what happened just because its from today. its just a big and deepish graze and 3 hematomas on my leg from what happened. was abit of a freak accident @Lee82

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Oh gosh!! I'm so sorry @outlander I can imagine just how painful that would be. Have you had it seen by a gp?

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nah @Lee82 i think itll go down overnight or at least i hope so anyway. i dont think theyll do much anyway so ill just rest it for a day or 2 first.

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@Former-Member how are you holding up? sorry i kinda took over here before

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@Lee82 , I am so sorry honey about your brother that will be hard for you and your boys. Is he going for very long? I am sorry you are struggling with your back. I miss out midnight chats also, I miss a lot but no point dwelling I guess we have have to make do with what we have. 😞 the monster has been very active today and it was so hard to hide it from my son and his girlfriend @outlander . I think the kids had fun doing their first (and sons only) paint pouring. Little you didn't take over at all I wanted to chat to you and @Lee82 but panic attack happened because I heard ambulance sirens and it's taken this long for me to calm down enough to reply to you and Mel. I plan on catching up on what's happening with you a little later @outlander so I won't ask you to repeat yourself.

@Faith-and-Hope , hope you have had an ok day my friend.

@Snowie , thinking of you my friend and hoping you are not feeling too bad.

@NatureLover , hoping your cleaning is going well and that you are being gentle with yourself.

@Zoe7 , I hope your day had moments of shine shine and relaxation. I hope you have made progress with all that work you had to do.

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Thank you @Former-Member .... 💖

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