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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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Don't apologise babe. It's ok.
do you have a favourite Disney movie? @Former-Member

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Nah I love them all. Babe it's getting scary I am going to wake exh2 up. I don't like how it's feeling.

please be safe my love and I will check in as soon as I can.

Love you 3000

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My love, I am a little worried so if you could check in that would be lovely. @Lee82 💖💜💛

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Sorry honey just haven't been able to get on today. I am safe just struggling quite a lot.

@Former-Member

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It's ok babe, you know how we both get when we don't know what going on with each other. 😐we get stressy and messy.

Love you heaps my friend @Lee82

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Love you infinity and beyond @Former-Member

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You will never understand how much you just checking makes me smile my friend.

@Lee82 Love you 3000

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I can't believe I did this to you again. @Former-Member I'm so sorry honey. I really shouldn't have mentioned it at all. I really hope you were able to get some sleep. No words can discribe just how guilty I feel right now. I didn't mean to put you through that. I just hate being alone when I have panic attacks but I won't mention it again. I hate myself for putting you through that babe I'm so so sorry.

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I'm so glad you have pushed the support button babe. I'm so sorry for worrying you. @Former-Member how you feeling?

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Hey my love, I am so glad you are as ok as you can be. Please never not share with me and the other members, could you imagine where my mind would have went last night if you had just stop communicating all together and not let us know you where having a panic attack. I have said it before worrying about you is just part of the friendship. @Lee82

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