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@Former-Member @Lee82 Good morning to you both:). Will be heading back to bed in a minute to get some more shut eye. Stay warm. Love peaxxx

haha that looks like a frog hot water bottle @Bunniekins One of my kids would love that as he loves frogs. I might need to copy that to show him next week 👍

Before Toby came along Cat used to snuggle up next to me, curl up on my lap and right next to me in bed (under the doona in winter) - now she retreats to her room and I only occasionally have her snuggled on the bed with me.

I am so sorry my love, I was going to reply to you last night but unfortunitly had a meltdown and was given my sleepers early. You have so much happening with and for you it's unfair and also pains me that I am of no real practical help for you. Good thing we don't live close by because my family would think I had runaway because I would be at yours so much... Family drama absolulty suck and being suck in the middle while dealing wiht our own issues makes it ten time worse and if your family is anything like Izzy's they don't give a poop about what she is going through as long as she is there to help them out or to side with them wiht whatever petty war they are having in the family.

Right now I am lisitening to "Beautiful in my eyes" and "thank you" on repeat trying everything in my tool box to calm my anxiety down as when I woke it was at an exteme as the nightmares where intense last night and because I couldn't wake from them due to sleepers it was soo much worse. Kimmy wants to bake today so bring on the mess We have run out of drying space in our paint room so no painting today when they are dry and I can touch them I will send you some pics, I must say even I think I am getting good. What are your plans for the day? How are your gorgeous boy today? Love you so much, more than 3000 @Lee82

Hey princess, I hope you managed to get some more shut eye and the rest of the day is smooth and peaceful. 💖👸 @Bunniekins 👸💖

Morning Zoe, I hope you didn't work to hard or for too long last night lovely and Toby hugs were plentiful. Hope today is a peaceful one for you my friend. 💖👩🏼‍🏫 @Zoe7 👩🏼‍🏫💖

Morning @Shaz51 hope you and Mr Shaz have a restful day ahead.

Good morning @Eve7 , sending you love and light for your day ahead my friend.

💝🌸 @Lee82 🌸💝 sending you all my love and then some more my beautiful bff.

💖🌵 @NatureLover 🌵💖 thank you for your ongoing support it means a lot to me and Izzy

💖🦖 @outlander 🦖💖

💖🚘 @Sans911 🚘💖

💖☃️ @Snowie ☃️💖

💖💐 @Maggie 💐💖

💖🍭 @Fluttershy1 🍭💖

Hey @Former-Member I worked through the night but managed a few hours sleep this morning. I am tired still but happy to have that massive job finally completed. Taking it easy today - more of a rest day along with doing some scanning and organising of computer files ...one of those boring jobs that need to be done 👍 Going to try to head out into the garden for a little while too this afternoon - as long as it isn't raining again and I have enough energy to do so.

How are you today Hon?

I am happy that you got some sleep and pleased you got that work out of the way too. I hope it's not raining and you have the energy to get out in your garden later. I am having a couch day as I am very fuzzy in the head from medication and don't have energy to do anything. I am also out of drying space in my paint room so no painting today. Kimmy wants to doing some baking but I don't think we can be trusted in the kitchen today.

Feeling really low today, already given into sh twice. Phones calls from workcover and the return to work coordinator triggered me big time late yesterday afternoon and struggled with meltdowns downs all afternoon, had really bad flashbacks last night and woke with my anxiety peaked. Doing all I can to bring myself down as much as possible.

Sorry for rambling my friend. @Zoe7 💜Nikki

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💖🌵 @NatureLover 🌵💖 thank you for your ongoing support it means a lot to me and Izzy

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Thank you, Nikki 🙂 Your posts are sometimes like a work of art, with all the individual emojis you carefully choose for everyone 🙂

I'm very sorry things have been especially hard last night and today 😞

Also I want to let you @Former-Member and @Lee82 and @outlander know I have a routine rental inspection coming up next Wednesday, and I don't cope well with them as my house is a terrible mess, with my hoarding disorder etc. So I may not be around as much till next Wednesday evening - I may just use the support button for the next week or so. But I will catch up next Wednesday. Sending hugs...

Ramble away Nikki. If it helps then I am happy to listen

It sounds like yesterday had a massive impact on you so having a couch day today is a good idea. I am pretty much doing the same for now - don't have the energy to get outside. The garden can wait and rest is probably more important for me at the moment anyway. I will move the trailer from the road to the driveway later so it is ready when I do get into the garden - much easier to move rubbish to the driveway than all the way onto the road 👍

Tobes is sound asleep on the doona next to me so might have to move him to lay down again myself soon. I did some washing this morning and still need to peg it out so no doubt that will get Tobes moving as well (he will of course follow me outside ) @Former-Member

Hey @Former-Member

I'm sorry to hear you're feeling really low today, as it sounds like you've been through a lot over night. When we are feeling more vulnerable, it can be really challegning to manage the urge to self-harm, but I want you to know that we hear you and you are not alone. Would you be open to getting in touch with SCBS or Lifeline for a chat? It's important that you stay safe, and if you require urgent assistance please phone 000.

Hi @Former-Member , I have an appointment with with my counsellor later today so I will be ok till then amd also have my hubby close by. Thank you for your concern. Nikki (alter)