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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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Hi @Lee82 , thinking about you and worried for you. I really feel for you, please take care ❤️

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@Bunniekins wrote:

I have decided to defer my studies until next semester when hopefully everything has settled down and would have found out what is going on with my amnesia by then. Just cannot remember anything new atm which is really frustrating and sad to be honest


Oh I am sorry to hear that this had to happen, you were so excited about your studies! @Bunniekins 😞

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hello and hugs @Lee82

hugs and hugs @Former-Member

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💝🌸 @Lee82 🌸💝 😞

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your not responsible for how others react @Former-Member i know that when you are having a hard time you often dont tag anyone so its totally up to them if they feel ok to respond. most of the time i am but i know when im not so i tend to stick to one or 2 threads myself just like you do. we all have our own limits but we often know them so responding is totally up to them.
Izzy and you definently havent lost me as a friend
If it helps you could talk about just the surface things? you dont have to go right into your feelings but maybe just share whats causing your grief just in this moment

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@Former-Member 💖💖💖

@Bunniekins So sorry to hear you are deferring your studies little pea - you were so excited about starting this semester but I can fully understand with what has been happening for you that you would both want answers first and also want to be in a better place down the track in regards to your memory - that is pretty important if you are undertaking studies. I really hope you get some answers soon Hon and can go back next semester.

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@NatureLover @Zoe7 Hi ladies yes I have a tinge of disappointment re studies this semester but honestly I cannot read the lecture slides .... let alone a page of required reading atm..... I just do not understand what I am reading it might as well be in a different language .... I feel like I am stupid or something. It is very depressing and frustrating.

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That is so hard @Bunniekins and understandable you have the feelings you have. Even though your decision to defer was a neccessary one it also a very wise one under the circumstances. I have everything crossed that you will find some answers very soon and get the help you deserve to return next semester

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@Bunniekins wrote:

It is very depressing and frustrating.


Yes, I can imagine... It sounds like a sensible decision to defer, but disappointing all the same. I hope you get the answers you'd like, soon...

@Bunniekins

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Love you to the moon and back my beautiful BFF.
❤️ @Former-Member ❤️
hope you are ok my love.

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