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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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My anxiety is starting to rise again @outlander I just don't know what to do anymore. I am so tired but i can't sleep. I just want to cry

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What is causing your anxiety tonight @Lee82 maybe if you can diffuse it, itll be easier to rest and sleep

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I really don't know. I just can't seem to get on top of it today. My heart won't stop pounding against my sheet and I can't stop shaking and my jaw is so damn sore from clenching

@outlander

Im so f**king over it. Why can't I just be normal and be don't this all this s**t.

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Have you ever tried progressive muscular relaxation (PMR)? you can often find youtube videos. @Lee82 it might help un clench your jaw and other muscles

Its hard when the anxiety is relentless

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No I have t tried that before. My shin is all itchy and I can hardly concentrate rugt now. I feel Mann I am going to HD for a heart attach

@outlander

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Maybe put cream on your itch @Lee82 and give pmr ago. Find a guided youtube video though its better to help you through it while learning it. You need to try and settled your breathing and heart.

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Im sorry @Lee82 i need to head to bed now i hope your anxiety eases very soon 💙

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Good morning my love, sorry you had such a bad night. Hopefully you are sleeping right now. It wasn't a good day here, after I sent your good morning the unconnected 16 yr old basically took over all day that has cause a lot of trouble for Izzy. 😞 I am hoping your day is a little more peaceful for you. Remember I Love You 3000 💜Nikki

@Lee82

Good morning to you my wonderful friend @NatureLover , I am hoping you can find moments of joy in your day today. 💜Nikki

Good morning to all our other friends as well

@Shaz51 @Maggie @SpiderLady @mudsum and everyone I have t tagged.

Sherry 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜

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Good morning Nikki, am happy to see you 🙂 @Former-Member

Thanks for your good wishes, sending them back to you tenfold!

@Lee82 am sorry to read your anxiety didn't ease - how much sleep did you end up getting? I really hope today is better for you...

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Hey gorgeous I am so sorry you are still having these terrible nightmares. I wish I could tell you the medication I was taking for my nightmares so you can discuss it with you MH team but I know I can't on here so perhaps you can suggest it to them yourself. There are meds out there that help with nightmares babe.
I want to give you a great big hug and hold you forever.
love you always and forever. ❤️ @Former-Member

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