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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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@NatureLover Goodnight Nature, I read that you where off to bed. I hope your sleep is peaceful my friend. Thank you for your message this morning, I wish you wouldn't worry so much about me though. I am pretty much safe all of the time, my thoughts may get dark, my mood my plummet but my watchful hubby is never far from me so no chance of serious harm being done. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for your concern and your friendship it means the world to me and Izzy.

@Bunniekins Hello princess pea, I hope your studies are going well and you have a super pea week.

@Eve7 Hey lovely just wanted to send you a huge hug and am hoping your are doing ok

@Zoe7 Miss Zoe I am hoping your day has been kind to you and your night is peaceful.

@Fluttershy1 Hey sweetie, I really hope that you are doing ok tonight. Sorry I haven't been able to chat with you again yet. I really look forward to being able to get to know you and if it's ok with you your alters as well.

@Shaz51 Good night lovely, hoping you and Mr Shaz are as well as you can be

@Angels333 sending you a squishy hug my friend

@MDT , @frog @mudsum @Purplerain @SpiderLady @TAB @Former-Member @Sans911 @Snowie @Eden1919 @The-red-centaur @Maggie and I know I have missed others but night meds equalls no brain function sorry. I hope you all have had an ok day and you find yourself able to rest well tonight.

Hey honey, I haven't been the best today so I have not checked in before now I am hoping you are ok after your appiontment today. Always thinking of you and I love you 3000 @Lee82

@Sherry, I am going to do this from time to time so if you are reading this please know you are missed already

Good night everyone. Nikki

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My day has been okay @Former-Member - one more day closer to the holidays and I am counting them down.

I read your worry room post - hear you Hon and sitting right beside you 💜💙💚🧡💛

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good night my awesome friend @Former-Member

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Thanks for the shoutout @Former-Member

I hope you get some good rest tonight

Take care

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Thanks @Former-Member. Hope you're going ok xx

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Hey @Former-Member hugs right back at you my friend Nikki.

I've been working a lot, haven't had the time to post...

I hope you're okay ❤🧡💛💚💙💜

XOXO ANGELS333

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@Former-Member 😔😢😭😭

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@Lee82 @Former-Member 💚💙💜💚💙💜💚💙💜

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@outlander 💕

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@Former-Member Hey Nikki thanks for the shout out :). You are such a wonderful person. I really love hearing from you and wish you well my dear friend. Studies are going well and are super pea exciting :D. Have taken a piece of my name with me on my studies so I never forget you beautiful people. Love you, peaxxx

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