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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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Good night my wonderful forum family. Thanks for that beautiful butterfly image @Shaz51

I have been busy this afternoon in my paint room Trying very hard to keep my mind of the other stuff @outlander , I hope you manage so rest tonight little one.

@NatureLover , sending you a squishy good night hug .

@Zoe7 , hi my beautiful friend. I am hoping you can find some time for lots of self care this weekend. Sending you a huge hug.


@Bunniekins , good night Princess Pea

@Lee82, please be gentle with yourself my gorgeous girl. Really hope we can be here at the same time sometime. Soon to chat. Love you 3000, to infinity and beyond Always Mel

💜Nikki

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Unfortunately I still have so much work to get done @Former-Member but only one more week until the holidays and then I can rest more. Goodnight gorgeous - I hope you sleep long, well and deep

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Goodnight Nikki @Former-Member 🌻🦖


Im glad that your safe @Lee82 maybe tomorrow you can find something nice to do. a walk on the beach or something crafty-or whatever you might like.

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@Former-Member thank you for remembering me Nikki. Hoping you are okay sweetheart. Love hearing about your day to day activities and wishing them to be kind and caring for you. Love always. peaxxx

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Hey Mel, just wondering how your night was and how you are going today. Hoping you are able to check in soon. Loving you like always 💜Nikki

@Lee82

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💖🌸 @Lee82 🌸💖

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Thank you my love. 💜Nikki

@Lee82

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Hey Nikki. How have you being doing babe? How was your weekend? @Former-Member

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Hey sweetheart, it's been very quiet lots of time spent painting or prepping to paint. How are you @Lee82

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that sounds really nice hun. I hope it was therapeutic for you. Anything you can share here for me to see?
I am ok. Just trying to get through every day as best I can. Mask is back up and portraying a happy Mel but screaming and fighting inside me. It's a struggle, it's tiring and it's rough.

@Former-Member

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