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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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Hey @Former-Member,

I really hope you are okay.

am thinking of you. ❤️

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@Former-Member that took a lot of courage to do and I only have admiration for you 💖

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Hey Nikki. I'm so sorry j in haven't been around the last couple days and that I missed your last post. I am so proud of you honey. You should not have to hide who you are to anyone. If they can't accept it or support you then they don't deserve to be in your life. They are not worth the energy you give them. I really hope by now Izzy is ok with what you did. How have you been? I have noticed you haven't been on lately either. Are you ok?
@Former-Member

even though I haven't been on I have not stopped thinking about you hun. Love you always and forever. ❤️

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Hi everyone. I'm sorry I haven't been on the forum the last couple days. I really hope everyone has been coping ok and that today is a better day for all. You all have been in my thoughts.
@Former-Member @Snowie @Maggie @Zoe7 @outlander @Former-Member @Sans911 @Shaz51 @Pollyotter @NatureLover @Faith-and-Hope @Lee71

also anyone else I have missed. I'm sorry my brain is not working properly at the moment.
❤️🌈⭐️🦋🌼🌺💜💙

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@Lee82 no need to be sorry hun. The main thing is looking after yourself. We all need time away from the forums at different times for different reasons.

Take care 💌💌

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💜 @Lee82

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Thanks @Snowie how have you been? How does it feel to be home?

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@Lee82 I am doing ok thanks. It is good to be home with the family.

How are you today?

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That's so great to hear @Snowie.
I am exhausted. It has been a huge couple days. I just got out of hospital last night. I am not coping very well and I'm feeling very lonely and like I am beyond help.

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Sorry to hear you have been in hospital @Lee82 I hope everything is as ok as it can be.

You are not alone hun, you have everyone here to support you, but I know what it is like to feel alone in real life even if you are surrounded by people.

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