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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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@Former-Member wrote:

I haven't been able to go as long as 10 minutes without something trigging me into a panic attact and while there where a couple of times I was able to calm down with tecniques that we have learnt from our time here unforunitly more times than not it was a full blown meltdown.

Thanks for your update, Nikki. Am so very sorry you've been continually in crisis... 😞 I so wish something would change for you to give you some relief. 💔

I hope you are up to doing the horse therapy today, and that it goes much better then last week. I hope it brings you some peace this week.

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Hi @Former-Member

I'm sorry to hear you're in a spot of trouble atm my friend. But I am glad you are on to some therapeutic treatment today too. That's a good bit of news.

Sometimes the forums can be hard to concentrate on when we get tagged in multiple places and follow multiple threads.

Please take care of yourself

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Thank you @NatureLover and @MDT

@Fluttershy1 , I am sorry you where in distress this morning.

@Lee82 , please my love if you could just support a post that would be fantastic. Love you 3000

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@Former-Member - I'm unwell aswell, it's triggering my mental health which is fustrating 😭😭

switching alters a lot aswell isn't helping

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I am so sorry I have not been doing well at all. I am struggling a lot at the moment and things have been really difficult to deal with.
nikki, Izzy and kimmy I hope you get some benefit out of your horse therapy today. I may not have been Online but I am always thinking if you hun. I love you unconditionally babe. Please take care and I hope to hear from you after your therapy.
💗 @Former-Member 💗

I also tested negative for COVID which is a win I guess.

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I'm glad to hear you don't have Covid, @Lee82 .

But sad to hear you've been really struggling. 💔 Gosh I wish those meds would kick in soon!

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Sorry to hear how hard it has been for you @Former-Member but super lovely to see you back today

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Hi @Former-Member @Lee82 @Fluttershy1 thinking of you tonight.

I'm feeling quite exhausted and foggy, but just wanted to say you're in my thoughts.

Take care

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@Lee82 @Former-Member 🦖🌻💜💐

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Hey gorgeous. How you feeling today? How did horse therapy go yesterday?
love you 3000 ❤️
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