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I was soooo unbelievably touched by that sign Izzy. I have taken a photo of it and it is actually my screen saver pic on my phone. 💕

honey I hope today is a little bit better for you. 1 more sleep and you get to spend some time with the horses.
please just pop in from time to time just so we know you are ok my love.
love you to the moon and back my BFF.
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Are you doing a little better now @Former-Member . Was concerned after reading your Worry Room post earlier. So I was glad you assured everyone that you were safe. I hope that is still the case?

Is your horse therapy tomorrow held in the morning or afternoon? I hope the weather is conducive to whatever you will be doing there. Is it one-on-one, or a small group?

I expect Kimmy will be looking forward to the horse therapy too ... isnt it every little girls dream to have their own pony? 🐴💓

Sitting with you, if thats helpful. About to make a cuppa here ... can I get you one?

Sherry 🐶🌸

I am super concerned about you right now. Are you sure you are safe? Please keep fighting my beautiful friend. I love you more than you know and I am always thinking about you. Not a moment goes past that you don't cross my mind.
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I am definitely safe. My horse therapy starts at 11 tomorrow but it's just a meet and greet, I will get to meet the horses though. Yes Sherry, Kimmy has been counting down the sleeps since last week she is very excited I doubt that I will get much sleep tonight with how excited she is. While Sean was on the phone with my psychologist my anxiety got out of hand and the monster paid me a nasty visit 😞 I am worried about how my DID will impact my therapy as other than me I have 4 "active" alters at the moment. I am not connected to two of them, so I lose time with no memory of what is being said and done. I am just so tried and no matter what I try right now I can't keep the sh and si thoughts away. Again I am safe but the thoughts are strong and I am doubting my strength mentally.

I hope from the bottom of my heart that you both are having an ok day. Thanks for the support lovelies it means a lot. 💜 Izzy & Kimmy. (She made me add her name😘)

Awwwwww @Former-Member 💞🌸 Thankyou 🌸💞

@Former-Member Izzy your posts are so colourful I love them :). Sending you love and kindness hunny. peaxxx

@Lee82 ... its not true that it would be easier for everyone if you werent around. People here want to help support you, and are happy to do so. 🌸🤗💖

I know there is little practical support we can offer here on the forums. But sometimes its just nice to 'be' here amongst people who clearly care for you. And when things are really tough, members here are often able to help us through enough that we can get through something like a panic attack. And if things are really bad, fellow members or moderators can help convince you to seek outside support if thats needed too.

I'm sorry the SI and SH are so high right now, but I also realise that your hospital admission is likely to be soon. I would encourage you to remain here for as long as you need, at the very least up until you get hospitalised. At which point you may be limited in your access to here anyway. But I think it would be worthwhile for you to maintain connections here in the meantime. So I hope you rethink that, and I reiterate that you are not a burden here. 🌸

@Former-Member .. always thinking of you, and also Kimmy. Maybe others too, whom I am yet to meet? You're amazing how you are able to function amongst all thats happening within. Love and hugs to you. 🤗💕

Sherry

My gorgeous Mel, I had typed a response shortly after you posted but it disappeared. @Former-Member said most of it for me anyway but I want to add just a little.

You know that I completely understand where you are at, but with that understanding also comes worry and I know that you know because you feel the same way about me when I am in the state you are in right now, which I am now so you know the worry and fear I am currently carrying around with me about your safety right now. You often tell me here is the best place to be when we are this down so my love please stay as much as you can. I know it's best not to be over active here but you have friends here that genuinely care about you and your whole wellbeing. I am trying to stay away from panic over your choice to stay off the fourm and dam girl it's hard, but I realise that it's your choice. I will ask you the same thing you asked of me only yesterday to check in as often as you so we, I know you are still safe.

Please never doubt how much I love and care about you and the amazing impact your friendship has had for me. It's going to be hard enough when you are in hospital but there I know your safe.

I love you 3000 to infinity and beyond Always Mel my beautiful BBF @Lee82

Oh Izzy your message had me in tears. Only because I can't begin to tell you just how much it all meant to me. You are such a beautiful person and an amazing friend to me. I promise I will make sure I pop in each day to let you all know that I am safe.
I wish you all the very best for tomorrow and I hope after your meet with the horses you will let us know how you went.
love you unconditionally my BFF. 💕

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