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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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It's ok my beautiful friend. I just want you safe. Please don't apologise for upsetting me. It's only because I care about you so much. I want to know know how your feeling what your thinking. I want to be able to be there to support you. I can't do that if im in the dark. Please don't stop reaching out babe. I can handle it. I am also being watched 24hr a day. I had my brother sleeping beside me last night and now I am back at mums for the day. I am as safe as I can be.

I love you to infinity and beyond Izzy.

@Former-Member

2 days and you start your horse therapy. I really do hope this will help you heal. I believe it will be a great thing for you honey.

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@outlander thank you so much for your on going support. It does not go unnoticed and it is truly appreciated

You are a beautiful soul my dear friend.

Thank you

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@Former-Member

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My Lee, hello. Seannie got me a new ba todat he is Blake

@Lee82

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Oh my sweet kimmy. ❤️
He is gorgeous and I love the name. Did you name him?

@Former-Member

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No my Lee, that ws his name @Lee82

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Well that is a gorgeous name..❤️
how are you my kimmy?

@Former-Member

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I am god but Izzy is bad my Lee @Lee82

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I know my sweets. Can you give her a great big hug for me and tell her I love her very much.
kimmy Lee loves you too and wants to give you a great big hug too. Wish I was with you right now playing with Blake

@Former-Member

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Hey kimmy what are you doing my love?

@Former-Member

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